Next comes Saturday. 21st. we had chem. N maths tests. Both, I screwed up damn holy shit. After tt, got ml..after tt, went for lunch at amk wif all the belos and believe it or not, NURUL..yes, nurul actually followed us. Then, me and za met dehai and tauhid at town. .we went to recce orphanages after tt. Darul ihsan n darul ma’wa.. went hm quite late..ard 8 plus..whoa…damn tired. Wat a long day we had..

Sunday.. borring day. Had madr. Went hm n slept. Woke up ard 6 to go dinner wif my mum..haha..n then, mugged at hm..oh, got pesta sukan tt day. Our sch team didn’t make it..we lost. But I know tt they did their best.

Ok, im like so lazy to write down wat happened….let me just summarise everything. te whole of this week was paradigma..its fun to see everyone..as the ml to come down do things together. Haha..god, theres so much to tell..everything was gr8. the part wen tauhid was the GOH was extremely hilarious. He was damn cheeky. Thank god he’s not the real goh, or I’d just give up my job as e the prize giver..whatever u call tt person…oh, on wed, I donated blood. It was quite a fun experience. My first time. Haha..coz of my low blood pressure, I felt faintish after tt..oh yah, coz of my weight toos..after ml thingy, me n za n vans stayed back in sch to mug..hehe, coz, my darling heart throb was there mugging toos. Oh guess wat? Wen I wanted to leave the canteen to head hm, I stopped by his table n gave him sweets which he immediately kept in his pocket..woohoo!! we talked a bit..really a bit..so, I said a gdbye, told him not to stay in sch for too long..he said, yeah ok,*smiles* u take care…woohoo!! I was so so so so so so happy and damn high..i felt my whole body floating in the sky..thank god za was there to grab my legs b4 I could ascend to the sky…haha..ok..i told my cousin syawal..hehe…
erm..days go by n still I think of u. days go I can live my life wo u..haha..that’s the song tt I im hearing in my head rite now.
Neways..paradigma was a huge success n im damn happy. After paradigma, me n the rest went out to bowl. But b4 tt, I received a very sad n heart smashing news..betrayal. anger.lost..frenship. only god knows. I remained silent in the bus ride to hougang..haha, n "bestfren" asked me if I was merajuk..of course no..haha, farhanah, muni, suli..(all the 3 belos ah) , za and azra kept asking me y I was so sad looking…I felt damn bad to sort off spoil the mood..hai..but iwas super heart broken…I tried to hide it, but it just showed…we had to take 2 buses to go to tt bowling place..in the second bus ride, I sat beside this "bestfren" of mine..haha, sit wif him surely wont feel sad..haha..n this is damn funny. I asked him how to get hm fr hougang.. (he lives ard tt area) and so he suggested the NEL (which was hell long a journey) and 854 (which was also hell long a journey)..so, I gave tt sad face again. Then, he said, if u want me to send u hm, can ah, but i must go hm and change clothes first..nak jumpe mak mertua..walao, damn cheeky..we played bowling after tt, I tried very very very very hard to forget wat happened. I knoe I cant forget it..i had to pretend so hard to conceal my pain.

The betrayal was excruciating

...but everyone was so nice to me..azra, za, adib..haz, hafiz..so I plucked up my courage..and strength n tried to put all worries aside…hehe…oh, shak was there its kinda weird lah, coz, I’ve known him for such a long time but nvr talked to him b4. so, I hope tt after y’day, we can start talking ah..haha…I made many new frens during paradigma..haha..sairi, khairul, jaenatte tian wee..haha..oh, became closer to Diana and thaharah…haha..ok lah..that’s all..woohooo. I love life!

Thursday..i stayed back in sch and mugged wif besse at the lib. Heart throb was there.. haha..coool.. erm, actually, I was supposed to meet naim n study wif him lah…we got a chem. Test coming up.. mugged hard..haha, coz heart throb was there. Yippeeee…. Then, heart throb came and walked towards my directn..coz, he wanna talk to adib.. hehe, but I was damn excited..haha.. after tt..i went hm..ard 8 plus liddat after mugging wif Natalie and besse. alfiyan smsed me tt nite n we caught up wif things. i dunno y my stupid headset didnt work. if it hadnt gone crazy, i cud actually pick up his call!

Friday. Many ppl skipped sch to study..haha..i think its an act of cowardice. We played soccer as usual for pe. This time, we knoe our limits. We stopped during the econs break..ok. then, we went to canteen.. it was a boring day lah..not many things happening. I had to stand on a chair during maths lesson to write my answers on the board. All appreciation goes to nizar for suggesting tt idea. We had CCA handover tt day. Walao! Damn furnie. Adib diri kat stage mcm askar mane tah..straight like lamp post! Haha…im very proud of all my frens on stage. DENISE-hockey, HAFIZ-hockey, ADIB-soccer, WEI CHEE-squash, WUI NGIAP-current affairs, WILSON-computer club, MAK LA-mldds, JAYSILAN-tldds..woohoo…happy for them. Wish em all the best…
I stayed back in sch to mug. Coz got ml meeting after tt. So I went to the lib n guess who’s there? Heart throb..so, me n za joined subu n adib to mug very near..in fact, just behind heart throb..ooolala. he was damn shy lah..refused to talk to me. Haha, but I was grateful tt he didn’t talk to me. Coz if did, I’d be so totally excited n begin to smile like nobody’s business..mugging in sch has nvr been this fun…haha..wif adib..the crazy ‘polite’ person who’d get so sadistically happy when I cant answer a maths qn..subu..damn crappy. N za, always suggesting ways n methods to solve maths qn earnestly but unfortunately they didn’t work..haha..oh..on tt day, I learnt a new song..MORE THAN WORDS.

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how u feel

More than words,
Is all u have to do to make it real,
Then u wouldn’t have to say
That u love me,
Coz I already knoe.

Monday..another college day. Nothing happened lah. Quite a boring day. Had house meeting and we elected our new Panther leaders. Filza..the ex captain, was like calling me to be in the committee, but, me, being the ever so lazy bum, just gave back tt stupid smile n looked away..neways, on my way to the pe dept tt day, I saw heart throb in the lib..dang! we haven’t said Hi to each other since last tues ( at BK wen I was doing pw)..after tt, it was hm..

Tuesday..arrgh..1 week has passed, and I haven’t said hi to him at all…aaargh…we had spa( science practical assessment).. quite bad ah…ok, after tt..i went hm…tueday is damn boring lah..

Wednesday..it was cool..coz, I was walking outside the bookshop wen I saw karthik. We smiled at each other n said hello. Waha! Had hockey..but b4 tt,had ml meeting..bout paradigma.. the environment in ml rm was quite tense ah…I’ve got no comments tho..but hockey was quite terrible..za blew her top. (for, wat I think, trivial matter)..was quite upset to see her tt way. When I told her to relax, she said ‘leave me alone’ I was quite shocked and frowned at her n gave her a disbelief face..then, she said ‘don’t give me tt face’..boy was I sad tt a FREN would actually say such a thing……..
Tt nite, I talked to nizar n apologized once again, he was like nagging at me. Me being childish and everything. ahaha..he was sucha nagger.

life sucks sometimes when u're being surrounded by sucky ppl. but waddeheck, i think we shd never let these suckers suck our blood. they can go suck some fresh air n f off. hai, sound so vulgar. anyways, wat i really wanna say is, dont let other put u down. dont let others bring u down. no matter what they have to say.. ignore it, only God can judge us. coz the Creator of life knows who we really are n thats the most important thing of all. yeah.

Friday 13th…whoa, I didn't notice tt it was Friday the thirteenth…ok..as usual, we had pe. But it wasn't like any pe day. Coz, we played soccer. Woohoo! Damn cool. The guys: nizar ,tauhid ,dehai ,Stephen, joseph, hong zhou chong yu,hafiz..the girls: me! Za, peilee, gaya, besse..we played all the way until the 4th period and rushed to the next class..gp class.after tt..borrrring. I was just looking forward to the ex 0504 lunch tt oraganised. I called kfc. We had lunch together n we really enjoyed ourself ah. it was a success, I must say. Everyone had smiley faces. We caught up wif things. My cool fren, Wui ngiap is the president of the current affairs club ahaha.. Wilson – computer club..so happy for them n the rest. We had maths test after tt ..haha…ok lah, tts abt all for tt Friday.

Saturday. Had gp test. I knoe very well tt I've srewed it up..(I haven't gotten the papers back) ok enuff said. After tt, we had conflict management seminar. Nothing much to say bt that lah. After tt, was pw meeting at hazels place. Ahaha..pw=luffing session=luffing at dehai session= making de hai stress session. Ok, he broke a chair. Tt was hell funny. Haha. We finished everything ard 6 plus and reached hm 5 mins before8..tired n shagged. My parents were already hm then.

Sunday..15th. madrasah..boring. we had tests. Nothing much lah. After tt, my pw grp came to my place to do project..ok lah.. we were quite productive.after tt, me n ma went to sakura for dinner. I think Sunday is a nice day. Im thinking of making it my outing day wif my mum…I mean, we don't have to spend the whole day together, but just gg out n having dinner, just the 2 of us, can bring us closer..I LOVE MY MOTHER…

Alrite..lets talk bout the Wednesday, the 11th…it’s a crappy day. Pei lee took nizar’s bag and hid in the ladies. I was in one of the cubicles at tt moment, wen I went out, I saw her putting toilet roll into his bag..whoa! I started laughing ever so excitedly..then, peilee dug his bag.. ok, tt was when I felt guilty. I felt really terrible. I know very well that nizar will nvr believe me when I told him that. But truth is, I did feel bad.. well, weird but damn true, he got 2 hair brushes. Oh ooh.. that day, me n sq didn’t go for hockey. We had some pw thingy. Erm, after tt, me and some other ml ppl, went to the student council room to get our blazers. We had some ushering and guest route planning after tt which was excitedly handled by our all time fav baby huey. Ohoo. After we completed that, we went hm. But tt’s not the end. Heart throb was still in sch. So, we..i mean, the soccer guys n we all ah walked to the mrt statn together. And once again, my heart did a triple somersault. The day went well, and I was very excited. Cant wait for PARADIGMA.

Thursday..let me see, we had a long day today. Oh, my parents were not in Singapore. So, basically im all alone ah. on tt day, I came to realize tt nizar was quite unhappy wif me. Yeah, coz, I did something dumb to his bag..i felt bad ah..but, coz he’s not an angel himself, I feel its quite unnecessary for me to get down on my knees and apologized to him… we had SOCCER after sch. Whoa! Is dat funny or funny? Mr mohan is such a cool teacher. I lurrrve him. Ok, tts not the main issue here. The main issue, is tt, halfway thru the game, my legs turned jelly. Courtesy of no-stretching-b4-playing.. but me, being the stubborn damsel, I refused to stop playing. But I was very blessed, I must say. Michelle, one of the soccer girls helped me massage my leg..not long after tt, I was back to my running excitedly mode. Woohoo..ok, not too soon..less that 3 mins, my legs became so pain. Aargh..i ran to the side and called gaya’s name..i was like screamin for her coz she was the nearest. But..terok ah, she just looked n didn’t come ah..coz the game was still on.. but then, there were other kind souls who left the game n rescued me! Yay..za, ariana, miss ong..and other soccer girls. Woohoo..wat a havoc scene it was. Ahah..after tt, I was supposed t meet my 4E1 buddies for dinner. I thot I’d be a success but a few turned up n they wanted to eat dinner at a fast food restaurant..oh..how not fun.. instead, I went for dinner wif my sisters. Za n azra…

Hey, its been a long time since I last updated this blog. Due to lynn's polite demand, I decided to update this now tho I haven't started my phy test revision..

Ok, where do I start?
Maybe I should blabber a bit bout the 10th of aug. yikes, tt sounds like ages ago. NEVERTHELESS, im just gonna go ahead. On the 10th, me and my pw group met up to finish our written report (tt was our main objective, but of course, we didn’t really achieve it) ..we were rather intimidated by tauhid’s revelation bt his grp almost finishing their WR. Ok, tt’s not the point really. The point is, we were at yishun BK discussing ( close to luffing n talking tho) when my dear heart throb appeared. Woop! I was so elated. Ahah. My heart did millions of somersault n I was practically brimming frm ear to ear. I waved at him n caught tt smiley look on his face. Whoa!! Alrite, just the nite before, I told my darling cousin Syawal bout heart throb. He was erm..supportive of the idea of me fancying tt my-oh-so heart throbbing crush/liking on/for HEART THROB.. the whole discussion was full of luffters. Oh, I met chiang ee too. She's no more with Richard. I swear I felt tears welling up in my eyes wen I heard tt frm her. I thot they make the most perfect couple I’d ever knoe. Learning bt their break up made me wonder what my love life will be like.( not like I have any currently). Oh..and on tt day, I was labeled MRS CURLY FRIES..oh, damn...

nurul lurves life 

heys..its the 9th of aug today, s'pore celebrates her 39th burfday today. cool yeah? im proud to be a singaporean. tho everyone thinks that the coolest thing to do every saturday is to hit the town wif their outrageous (but they claim its simple) fashion, i still lurve singapore. tho teens here think that wearing Levi's and roxy and carrying bbc is the only way to get recognition (materialistic, huh?), i still lurve tt opulent lifestly of ours. at least, i lurve mine. opulent yet humble. whoa!!
well. its the holiday period or so it is said to be.. on sunday, i had to go for pw. so much for a holiday. we did pw till late. erm 6 plus. boy.. the discussion went well wif me doing most of the talking like a super confident woman. weehee. dehai, being the only boy there was rather quite. wahaha, but he didnt stay like tt for too long..wen jeremy n tauhid came, beebeebooboo became so excited n became so audio-ly active..haha! after tt, we went hm.. i reached hm n prepared dinner. after tt, i did some maths and physics. ma father came hm n brought food. yums... then. i indulged maself in reading tt bk i borrowed..cool book... after tt, went to bed yeah.

today..nuthing fun happen..i'll write bt it layta..aights.

i have been so lazy to blog. well, let me do a quick account of wat tt took place for the past 7 days.
i was absent frm school on monday. aargh, was sick. tt mornin, the weather was pretty pleasant-cool and so refreshin. yet, i was off colour. went to yishun polyclinic and hate having to wait. shd've just gone to the private doc. after that, me n Ma went for breakfast and headed home. im so lucky to have a mum hu cares so much bt me. yeps. my father too. wen i told him tt i went to e polyclinics, he asked me y didnt go to the private doc which was nearer. well, actually, i oso dunno. maybe the thot of me not wanting to spend his money made me do so. haha..medical cost can cost quite a bomb. i still remember last yr, i had to pay 70 bucks wen i saw the doc.. reached hm, consumed the med prescribed to me and watched tv. got bored and went to sleep. it was such a boring day. yucks. oh yah, my darling gaya smsed me bt heart throb waving to them.haha. she said he missed me. tt's abs hilarious. i woke up frm sleep n felt so fresh as ever.i did some maths. went online, chat wif yc..had an sms frm huney hazel asking me to get well soon..hees.. aft tt, i went to dreamland..
tuesday. it was the second day of ma public holeeday. was feeling a lil groggy. no more sore throat. i watched tv and enjoyed myself..haha, yeah. and after tt, did some physics and took a nap. woke up and watched tv..haah! then, went online, chat wif rahman. he's oso sick..everyone's sick...after tt i retired..
wed..i woke up feeling less groggier. and like always, rushed to leave fer sch. kinda excited, carried my new bag u see.. in sch, nuthing muuch happened. got to see heart throb and the day went very fast. oh yeah, once again for chem lecture i sat at the other side of the audi. haha, besse n me gotta sit near mr.twenty! after tt was maths. me n gaya tormented chong yu in a very sweet manner.very ironic ye? we tore a piece of paper and used pink hiliter..tada! a pink polka dotted piece of pp. then, we wrote happy belated birthday to him.wen he saw us doin tt he shook his head n i swear i thot i taw a tomato. haha, we pretented to hide the paper.(haha..it was SUPPOSED to be a surprise). wrote some stupid poems n gave him. hahah..we continued our poetic pursuit. this time, wif more lame and uper dumb prisch-my-biodata-or-poems-for-ur-autographbk kind of poems. haha, we handed our piece of art to him. haha, tauhid read it out loud and omg, my stomach almost burst, my heart almost stopped beating..damn funny. aha aha aha aha. it was the phy period then and our dearest mr lim wasnt there. haha, the teacher whom za claims has a flat ( almost no) butt came to our class. OooPs, we were makin too much noise..oh yeah, he came in again just a few secs after our beebeebooboo dehai fell of his chair. my oh my, wat has the world come to? chong yu fell, za oso fell of their chairs in tt class. wahaha..everybody luffed. ok, sorry dehai. but still, its damn farnie. aight. ok, the period was over n guess wat? mr lim walked up the stairs. haha, he was very silly. looked at the wrong time table. after tt, we had gp lecture. was not tt boring. after tt, we went for lunch in the canteen. za n gaya shifted tauhid n nizar's bags as they were not ard then. i told za n gaya to hide it instead.as za was abt to embark on her mission, the 2 MLs came back..haha, realising tt their bags were missing, they approached our table. damn, i was trying so hard to put a str face. haha! i burst out luffin! they took mine n gaya's bags n walked off..wahah..the funniest part was when nizar hopped outside the canteen, behind e wall. oh gawd, boy was tt amusing. at last, i found my bag in the canteen..haha..crap. aft tt, i had maths test. boring. next was hockey. as i was still recovering, my sweetheart gaya refuses to let me play hockey. how caring. muacks gaya! so, my BESTFREN adib came and talked to me. haha, seldoms talk to him face 2 face. he had a physio session. his knee or something (later, i found out tt he had a muscle strain frm knee all the way to his back!!!!).den nizar came wif AA..haha..god, AA is really AA...dang! even gaya noticed tt, tt day. haha.. i went hm wif sq..n nuthing lah. went hm, did some hmwks..watched tt mly show on suria n retired..
thurs!! the day was supposed to be a short day!! but waddaheck? we stayed back till 4..bummer.. we had maths in the morn. me n gaya were talkin continously bout AA n how AA he is..oh ya, darling peilee and za caught a flu. Ooops. its not frm me rite? after tt, was chem. once again we shifted to the other side of the audi to see mr.twenty. pei lee slept beside me peacefully as i was busy copying down the notes. ahah..next was break!! cool, here comes the VANESSA part..tt 'bustard' (now no more a bustard coz we just found out tt he wasnt a bustard in the first place, but since we haven found any new nickname for him, he shall remain as bustard) came to sit on the bench close to ours. n guess wat? i shouted 'vanessa!' u see, vans added him in msn, he didnt knoe whu is she. she refused to reveal to him. haha, we being the nice n helpful frens always drop hints wen tt 'bustard' is ard..haha..n he'll look at us n start smiling..haha, but we don quite knoe if he's already found hu vanessa is..teehee..heart throb was sitting at the table in front of me. wah.. aft tt, phy. the lecture n the lecturer all screwed up la.. me n gaya n vans were bored, so we decided to write tweety a poem (coz he just got a new haircut)..oh, btw, tweety is Stephen, my twin brader.. but we were still suffering frm the hysteria-post vanessa n bustard ailment, so, we cudnt think of any poems..the day went well..nuthing much la..then, the best part was outside LT1/bookshp after sch.(we had to finish gp stuffs)..bustard went to the bookshop n i automatically shouted vanessa!..haha, he didnt respond..so, i asked the girls who were wif me, besse, gaya, za, peipei n vans to yell "vanessa" and point at each other when 'bustard' walk out the bkshop..haha, so we saw him walkin out the bkshp n we did as planned...haha. bustard smiled..haha...ok, it didnt end there. after finishin gp,i was packing to leave (gaya n za were flirting wif Jay n vans was somewhere near them.) so, after packing, i wanted to call the girls..so i walked there n guess wat? so did 'bustard'..when vans saw him, she did a 100 mtr sprint up to level 2. like usual, i was luffing uncontrollably..haha, he turned ard n walked away..so, vans went down, relieved tt he's gone..haha. it didnt end there..'bustard' turned ard n walked towards us..haha, our darling vans screamed and once again, but this time 200m, she sprinted away..haha..oh my...after tt, me, za, gaya n vans went to toa payoh to buy stuffs. n gaya smsed heart throb a fwded msg usin my phone. haha, he wont reply la, i told her. oh, we met subu there wif this girl. not bad, very sweet looking..hehe..after tt i went home..lalala..chat wif adib n he's very funny la! now he's officially my bestfren!! lalalala...oh ya, not boyfren..teehees
hey friday came! i was supposed to wake up early to prepare the sausages but woke up late. NEVERTHELESS, i boiled em n like usual, rushed out of hs...took train..while waiting at the platform, i looked ard..n haha, saw heart throb. err..i think looking at my directn..(read: my directn, not me)..we had aj race. i was damn excited. the race went well wif me n the rest singing national day songs..oh ya, don forget the flags! i was very high n all keyed up. but was kinda irritated wen the guys just left the grp to buy stuffs at macs. but waddeheck..shdnt blow my top over lil things like this..we had potluck..de-brief..erm, n yeah, the confirmation of wat to do for our service learnin. we'll be doing some stuffs at an orphanage. time date venue wat have u, all not confirmed yet lah...i was abt to leave the class n flo and sq were waiting at the door wif their flags.. n u cud only leave e room if u sing a line of any national day songs..haha...funny chicks. after tt, me, za, vans went behind the lib to accompany gaya. she had to do some recordng of wishings n greetings for the J2s TL members..haha, so, i kid ard n asked vijay if they cud record me too. n guess wat? subu dragged me to the front of the camera n handed me the microphone..whaha..subu n vijay were like forcing (ya, forcing) me to say all those mushy stuffs to karthik!! walao...of cos i didnt. so, i hust said something like all the best..haha..watever..after tt, the 4 of us..gaya, me, za n vans went to town. bought tix, window shopped ard..hahaha, i tried this green mesh halter. n this super mini n tight fitting skirt.haha..dang! i looked skimpy..haha..yucks. after tt, went to watch movie. the village. very interesting movie. after tt went home..lalala....oh yeah, watched PUTERI IMPIAN..haha, lurve tt show. abt this ordinary factory girl wanting to become a princess. so, she wrote like 67 letters to this tv show tt actually grants ppl wish..boy was she lucky, her letter was picked. thing is, she cud only be a princess n she'd be recorded in camera for 10 days..so, one day, as she was living her royal life, she met a real prince who fell in love wif her. wah! damn lucky..and guess wat? the cameraman who's been wif her loved her too..in the end, she returned the Prince's engagement ring and went back to her original life..sweet rite?? but u ppl have to catch PUTERI IMPIAN II..god, the cameraman actually have a girlfren!! waddaheck?? n when nora (tt girl hu wanna be a princess) became sad n angry, he ignored her. i mean, how cud he? she left the prince so tt he cud have her..but being an idiot, he went for another girl..ooh no..so heart breaking, love thrashing, pain striking movie...haha.. sorry, im feeling emo currently.

heys..its a rainy and wet sunday. have been hearing the screeeching of tyres and honking of cars from the rd in front of ma rm..aargh..damn stressful.

wat luck, im sick right now. my nose is blocked and my throat hurts.

erm..wat to say yeah? err..oh, yesterday, saturday, during ML, many ppl turned up..wahaha, wat a surprise. it was very funny at the same time to see they all there. wahah.azra, shahraini, za, hafiz and i left for hockey.aah, wat a waste. missed all those crappy stuffs tt happened during ml. hockey was great tho. we learnt lotsa stuffs. indian dribble, drop step, close dribble. very tiring. after hockey, we headed to amk central for lunch..aft tt, me, azra, za went to peninsular to check out shoes and ma bag..after much contemplating and discussion and consideration, i've decided to buy tt dc bag. wahah..i used the bag almost immediately after buying it. kemaruk!

anyways, today, sunday...nuthing happened la. cancelled pw coz im sick n hz is grounded (for whatever reason i cant think of)..ok..gtg. chill yeah.