Next comes Saturday. 21st. we had chem. N maths tests. Both, I screwed up damn holy shit. After tt, got ml..after tt, went for lunch at amk wif all the belos and believe it or not, NURUL..yes, nurul actually followed us. Then, me and za met dehai and tauhid at town. .we went to recce orphanages after tt. Darul ihsan n darul ma’wa.. went hm quite late..ard 8 plus..whoa…damn tired. Wat a long day we had..

Sunday.. borring day. Had madr. Went hm n slept. Woke up ard 6 to go dinner wif my mum..haha..n then, mugged at hm..oh, got pesta sukan tt day. Our sch team didn’t make it..we lost. But I know tt they did their best.

Ok, im like so lazy to write down wat happened….let me just summarise everything. te whole of this week was paradigma..its fun to see everyone..as the ml to come down do things together. Haha..god, theres so much to tell..everything was gr8. the part wen tauhid was the GOH was extremely hilarious. He was damn cheeky. Thank god he’s not the real goh, or I’d just give up my job as e the prize giver..whatever u call tt person…oh, on wed, I donated blood. It was quite a fun experience. My first time. Haha..coz of my low blood pressure, I felt faintish after tt..oh yah, coz of my weight toos..after ml thingy, me n za n vans stayed back in sch to mug..hehe, coz, my darling heart throb was there mugging toos. Oh guess wat? Wen I wanted to leave the canteen to head hm, I stopped by his table n gave him sweets which he immediately kept in his pocket..woohoo!! we talked a bit..really a bit..so, I said a gdbye, told him not to stay in sch for too long..he said, yeah ok,*smiles* u take care…woohoo!! I was so so so so so so happy and damn high..i felt my whole body floating in the sky..thank god za was there to grab my legs b4 I could ascend to the sky…haha..ok..i told my cousin syawal..hehe…
erm..days go by n still I think of u. days go I can live my life wo u..haha..that’s the song tt I im hearing in my head rite now.
Neways..paradigma was a huge success n im damn happy. After paradigma, me n the rest went out to bowl. But b4 tt, I received a very sad n heart smashing news..betrayal. anger.lost..frenship. only god knows. I remained silent in the bus ride to hougang..haha, n "bestfren" asked me if I was merajuk..of course no..haha, farhanah, muni, suli..(all the 3 belos ah) , za and azra kept asking me y I was so sad looking…I felt damn bad to sort off spoil the mood..hai..but iwas super heart broken…I tried to hide it, but it just showed…we had to take 2 buses to go to tt bowling place..in the second bus ride, I sat beside this "bestfren" of mine..haha, sit wif him surely wont feel sad..haha..n this is damn funny. I asked him how to get hm fr hougang.. (he lives ard tt area) and so he suggested the NEL (which was hell long a journey) and 854 (which was also hell long a journey)..so, I gave tt sad face again. Then, he said, if u want me to send u hm, can ah, but i must go hm and change clothes first..nak jumpe mak mertua..walao, damn cheeky..we played bowling after tt, I tried very very very very hard to forget wat happened. I knoe I cant forget it..i had to pretend so hard to conceal my pain.

The betrayal was excruciating

...but everyone was so nice to me..azra, za, adib..haz, hafiz..so I plucked up my courage..and strength n tried to put all worries aside…hehe…oh, shak was there its kinda weird lah, coz, I’ve known him for such a long time but nvr talked to him b4. so, I hope tt after y’day, we can start talking ah..haha…I made many new frens during paradigma..haha..sairi, khairul, jaenatte tian wee..haha..oh, became closer to Diana and thaharah…haha..ok lah..that’s all..woohooo. I love life!