heys. haven beeen blogging for quite sometime. anyways, its the 11th day of ramadhan today. n boy m i sad. gosh? wat have i been doing for the past 11 days? oh Allah, please forgive me.

anyways, i have so many things to say. mixed emotions. but one thing's for sure, im still feeling upset bt za n adib not being promoted. im so gonna miss them.. well, i wrote a letter to myself in lecture just now. this is how it goes..

my thoughts
suddenly i feel so sad. i thought that i can get over it. i thought i can
easily let go the fact tt za n adib will not be in j2 with me. yeah, so i
thought. right now, im in the freezing audi. feeling cold and distant form
warmth. some horrible torturous lecture. it is made worse by the ambience in
here. sucky ambience tt is. the audi is half empty..or shd i say half full?
yeah..watever. well, i guess imma gonna miss za n adib. hang on, its not 'i
guess' its 'im so extremely sure'. but sometimes, spending lesser time together
with the ppl u treasurewill make u treasure them even more. but it is sad that
it has to be i the form of them being retained.i wont get to talk malay shit to
anyone in class anymore. nobody to share the same islamic or malay sentiments
with me, yeah, no za with me. well, its so much more than tt really. too much.
too much will no longer exist in my life next yr. haha. no more looking out for
adib in audi (to make sure he doesnt skip lect. coz if he does, i'll qn his
absence on msn tt very nite) no more tutorial discussion wif him late at nite on
msn. that sounds bad rite? well, tt's frm me. wat bt them? wat wud their lives
be like next yr? will za find good frens in her new class? will she find a cute
lil malay girl hu always talk bt heart throb n everything else, in her new
class? wat bt adib? gosh..wud he find jambu girl who'd call him 'bestfren'?
haha.. funny. but tt thot scares me.