haha..this is kinda crappy. but i just feel like writing it anyways. had a conversation wif ma cousin just now wen she came to visit my mum. we prattled about marriage. we both agree on one thing (besides we'll design each others' wedding gowns)..we agree tt marriage, ie, the reunion of 2 individuals..bla..bla..bla.. is quite a problem.. for me, i think, when the time is right, i'll just adopt a kid or two.. getting married to a man? that thot scares me. i always feel tt marriage is sort of an ending to love? (wat?) besides the point tt no man will actually marry me, i feel that marriage is damn scary...a commitment wimp..yeah, i think tt's me.. shucks, i shdnt have mentioned tt..commitment wimp..

hey..im just writing this to myself.
today is firdaus burfdae..turned 19. frm wat tt happened on kym's, i decided i shdnt bring back the past. i shdnt have organised tt darn reunion. i shdnt have. wat's gone is gone. but seriously..( for the infinite time) its really not my fault..watever it is, hope we'll be frens forever, tho i tink its unlikely so. i hate to reminisce bt the past. the last yr's raye..it was bad. real bad.

wherever u r guys, i miss u. *weep like i always do wen i think of all of u*