ooh lala. nice day today.
anyways, my whole week was fine.
and im very lazy to write bt it lar.

*wanna go shopping. shopping anyone?
*finish up madrasah project by fri nite
*go breakfast wif zaq n huda?
*plan syaf and fizah bday celebratn
*meet moi sister lynn. (miss like crazee)
*spend some time w ma cuzzy syawal. (sorry cousin, me bz lately)
*check baju raye!

wahah.oredi in the raya mood..ish ish ish ish.. me, fanah and nadiah..aww..me n nadia look so sweet in purple..act, we look sweet all the time lah. 

heys. haven beeen blogging for quite sometime. anyways, its the 11th day of ramadhan today. n boy m i sad. gosh? wat have i been doing for the past 11 days? oh Allah, please forgive me.

anyways, i have so many things to say. mixed emotions. but one thing's for sure, im still feeling upset bt za n adib not being promoted. im so gonna miss them.. well, i wrote a letter to myself in lecture just now. this is how it goes..

my thoughts
suddenly i feel so sad. i thought that i can get over it. i thought i can
easily let go the fact tt za n adib will not be in j2 with me. yeah, so i
thought. right now, im in the freezing audi. feeling cold and distant form
warmth. some horrible torturous lecture. it is made worse by the ambience in
here. sucky ambience tt is. the audi is half empty..or shd i say half full?
yeah..watever. well, i guess imma gonna miss za n adib. hang on, its not 'i
guess' its 'im so extremely sure'. but sometimes, spending lesser time together
with the ppl u treasurewill make u treasure them even more. but it is sad that
it has to be i the form of them being retained.i wont get to talk malay shit to
anyone in class anymore. nobody to share the same islamic or malay sentiments
with me, yeah, no za with me. well, its so much more than tt really. too much.
too much will no longer exist in my life next yr. haha. no more looking out for
adib in audi (to make sure he doesnt skip lect. coz if he does, i'll qn his
absence on msn tt very nite) no more tutorial discussion wif him late at nite on
msn. that sounds bad rite? well, tt's frm me. wat bt them? wat wud their lives
be like next yr? will za find good frens in her new class? will she find a cute
lil malay girl hu always talk bt heart throb n everything else, in her new
class? wat bt adib? gosh..wud he find jambu girl who'd call him 'bestfren'?
haha.. funny. but tt thot scares me.

woke up today n got an sms frm ma cousin. gosh, me miss him..
went to sch n had this lame NE thingy. pei lee told me bt this chinese movie MY LEFT EYE CAN SEE GHOST. tt's the title ah. super sad. n very funny toos.
oh, vans went out with samuel. dang! jealous me.
watched bridget jone's diary in the library with shah n za.
went to meet karthik to pass the book to him. quite malu lah.
ooh, za most prolly cant get promoted. i was damn sad. i went behind (we were on the track waiting for the damn bus) n started crying. my! i felt so scared n sad. really.. thank god pei lee, hazel, flor n jia ning were there to talk some sense into me. i mean, rite then, i felt so bad. damn bad..wat if...?
anyways, we went to the Officer Cadet School. it was great lah. but damn tiring..

haha. oh, somethg super hilarious happened. we were havin break, so i decided to
go to the washrm (it unisex lah n wif no cubicle. just open n can see the toilet
lah) n i turned the door knob n opend the door. god! nizar was inside changg. it
was horribly embarrassing.

after tt, went back hm with pei lee. aight tt's all ah.

*evacuation excercise
*dodge the air
*sexy hair
*anuar n suharto.
*wahah...funny classmates i have.

wahaha..cant resist it. feel like featuring this kampungness badly..muahah.. oh yeah, they are the belos. 

me and aja! hockey rowk big time! 

weeheee..muni me and fafa. 

wooohhooo...hockee rocks 

im awake rite now coz i have to MUG for my tafsir ( my religious class thingy)...gosh. im totally in NO MOOD TO MUG!! mug? wat? gosh.

alrite. we had farewell day on friday. grreat. wahah. saw tt super AA fazlin taking the trophy. lol. damn cute. told pei lee to take his photo. many others went up on stage. haha. me n ma grpies cheered for everybody lah. wahah, including jagaganesh (is tt his name?) and rejab. kinda funny. ooh, n tt j2 girl hu always mugged with kang wei too. yeah, farah, irma, naim n many others lah. haha, but the most

UNFORGETTABLE

one was fazlin and his bow an his watever lah. gosh! ooh, me took a picture with naim. yups. friends forever. hugged farah n irma.

got back promos paper.A for maths. D for phy. F for
chem.

alhamdulillah. did rather ok. enuff to get promoted. not so for my other frens tho. za cried n i felt like crying too. in fact i cried oso lah. n she stopped crying. *haha..adib said tt i scare ppl when i cry, then they will listen to me n stop crying too* okies. happy for the rest hu did well. bessie, vans and pei lee. ooh, nizar too. lil nizzy did well for phy. he got better than me!

had open hs on sat. orite lah. . played congkak..batu seremban *wink at suli and adib* damn tired n mass dance was so tiring...wanna die of thirst.u wont miss the water till ur throat runs dry! attended jeremy's father wake.. wake and bake *thinking bt tt crazy tauhid*

ok..tts all. i better get started wif madrasah stuffs..

found a new heart throb. he deserves this title. my sweeetest cousin ever. love him to bits.
tmr's the day..the farewell day n the results day. oh my gosh.
anyways, we (me, fana, suli, muni, aja, shaheeda, nizar n tauhid) went to play pool on tues. awesome! we went to eat at rex n mr petty nizzy (haha...winks at fanah) was complainin all the way coz we had to walk there. after tt, we wen to little india n walk walk. very fun. cool..
after tt, met yan at town n we all walked ard together aimlessly. bought subu his prezzie.
slacked all my life the following days. went to jln kayu for prata just now.
and, i got naim a lil prezzie. hope he'll like it. yups..

syawal.my cousin.my heart throb.

got the my boo song playing over n over again..all thanks to big boss.anwys, today, i feel loved. by my family, frens and importantly Allah...happy fasting!

oh, my uncle is in the hospital. its bad. so bad. Allah will protect him. i knoe he will.. Amin.

physics spa? alhamdulillah..i was confident just now. ( whether i did well or not doesnt really matter..coz, we wont knoe the results anyways)

went to catch a flick just now. was lucky coz we managed to get into the cinema tho we lost our tix..

saw kenneth n navin frm amkps...saw eugene from peirce..haha, he was so shocked when he saw me....hah!

went hm..n saw fafa on tv. haha..i was damn excited.

oh naim called. i thing he's so sweet...gonna miss him after the farewell. so gonna miss him badly.

haha..this is kinda crappy. but i just feel like writing it anyways. had a conversation wif ma cousin just now wen she came to visit my mum. we prattled about marriage. we both agree on one thing (besides we'll design each others' wedding gowns)..we agree tt marriage, ie, the reunion of 2 individuals..bla..bla..bla.. is quite a problem.. for me, i think, when the time is right, i'll just adopt a kid or two.. getting married to a man? that thot scares me. i always feel tt marriage is sort of an ending to love? (wat?) besides the point tt no man will actually marry me, i feel that marriage is damn scary...a commitment wimp..yeah, i think tt's me.. shucks, i shdnt have mentioned tt..commitment wimp..

hey..im just writing this to myself.
today is firdaus burfdae..turned 19. frm wat tt happened on kym's, i decided i shdnt bring back the past. i shdnt have organised tt darn reunion. i shdnt have. wat's gone is gone. but seriously..( for the infinite time) its really not my fault..watever it is, hope we'll be frens forever, tho i tink its unlikely so. i hate to reminisce bt the past. the last yr's raye..it was bad. real bad.

wherever u r guys, i miss u. *weep like i always do wen i think of all of u*

having a bad sore throat
my thots for today.

i feel lost, strayed.

i feel tt im beseiged by ppl whom i don really know

sceptical of things

i dunnoe who i really am

apprehension?

wats wif these feelings tt ppl dont understand..appreciate me?

but i dont need no one to validate me

do i?

no i dont.

im feeling sick. damn sick. so sick.

oh, but something swweet just happened, alfiyan just smsed me..when i told him i was sick, he called me. (alfiyan is this guyfren whom i've known since in pri sch but we seldom, rarely,close to rarely, talk on the phone)..but because i have a sore throat, (plus the fact tt im so totally malu to tok to him) i didnt pick up the phone. haha, n i smsed him stuffs like sory, i got sore throat ah, no voice, cant talk. (haha, yeah rite! i just finished screaming to my bro for taking my socks).

ok, gtg. byes.

my mum is back at hm. im back at hm. had gp just now. guess i did pretty ok just now. but its all up to Allah..

anyways, i wanna officially announce tt heart throb is no longer heart throbbing
anymore n hence, the heart throb title tt i once bestowed upon him has been
deactivated.

.yeah. sweets lynn, hope that 5-0 match wont bring u down. work hard n u'll get wat u want. cheers babe. aight..gotta butt off. peace out.

lalala 

last year..30th july..at fort canning. deryck rocks.*mosh mosh.jump jump* oh yah..the rudies sucks big time.cant stand em.  

namaste.aite. i've been spending my precious one wk of life mugging profusely. eergh..horrible. oh yeah, this is really heartbreaking,

sum 41

is making their way down to singapore. n guess wat? i dont get to see them perform..bummmer.
oh..nvm, hope they'll come again. good charlotte? where are they. damn, i luurve joel so much.
oh..yups. my mum is still at my granny's place. its kinda difficult u see. i have to go back n forth frm sch, ma hm n my gramp's place.n i cant study at nenek's place coz all those little ones will disturb me..aargh. n promos coming. i hope my mum will understand n just come hm..