im sleepy but jus cant slp.i suddenly remember wat besse told me on our way to Gelare yesterday.don lead a guy on.wahaha.tt was tremendously shocking u knoe.i mean, i nvr noticed myself leadin anybody on.so i told her that im not leading anyone on.plus im a commitment-phobic woman.and i wont be bothered to get into any relationship now.whoa.cant stand talking bt this serious n deep thing..

match coming real soon. Allah please gif all of us good health n continue burning the fire in all of us.Amin.

..after all i put u thru, u still stalk ard and stand by my side..

ok. actually takde paper nak ckp.many shockin things happened.sometimes i hate life.but faith has keep me gg on.(hehe. let me try to sound inspirational here.)i alw believe tt all of us are born wif a beautiful life.we jus have to be positive.n kadang2 kene thick skin sikit ah.kalau org tak happy with wat we're doing, we dont have to lay down there n crumble.we gotta show them tt we're more than wat they see n perceive..but we have to know the limitations ar.if not, we'll end up being too cocky.watever it is, its important to stay humble.accept flaws of others.appreciate others.be forgiving...hmm..forgiving? its really tough to trust someone hu disappointed u badly.shd we even care forgiving them wen they had betrayed the second chance we gave them before tt? only Allah knoes.

...wen u look out in the distance.do u notice my existence...

im gonna make a change.for once in my life.its gonna feel real good.gonna make a difference.gonna make it right this time.

ok.nak cuba tulis entry dlm bahasa melayu.

akhir2 ini, aku selalu sibuk memikirkan hal2 yg tak begitu penting..tapi kalau pikir betul2, hal2 yg kelihatan seperti remeh ni semua, memang merunsingkan..

mcm mcm bende yg membimbangkan aku.

persahabatan.keluarga.tanggungjawab.kejujuran.


adakah kita, manusia mempunyai keupayaan untuk menentukan masa hadapan persahabatan kita? skarang ni, aku seolah-olah dibelenggu perasaan sedih dan kehilangan. aku tidak pasti sama ada aku dah kehilangan die ke belum. tapi tengok gaya, mcm dah gitu. sebab dah lame tak berbual.bile nak berbual, die mcm tak minat.akhirnya aku yg sakit hati..tapi aku rase bersalah jugak kalau membiarkan persahabatan kita luput begitu saja. tapi kalau aku sorang je yg berusaha untuk menjalinkan persahabatan ni, macam tak adil gitu. nanti die besar kepala pulak..tapi, kalau aku tak mencuba, mungkin aku akan hidup hari2ku dgn dipenuhi kekesalan..takpe lah, biar aku sabar sikit.biar aku yg mengorak langkah pertama.mudah2an die perasan dan ikut same.aku tahu, mesti sakit hati punye.tapi takpe la.

pasal keluarga.tanggungjawab dan kejujuran, lain kali aku sambung..mungkin dlm bahase cine pulak..wahah.

so many things happened. dunno where to start.

23rd march 2005.
its a weds.had training.talked to charles.hmmm....our conversation was quite deep.. but the actual fun thing only came after tt. it was supper with sugar pei lee! yups. we went to jln kayu for supper all the way till late. cousin smsed me. said he missed me. whooopiee!!

24 to 27th march 2005.
self-declared public hoilday. didnt go to sch coz was supposed to pack for the trip.so not excited for the trip.hais.. started packing ard 5pm..left hm ard 10 plus..like wth. had to wait for many other ppl coz it was sum kind of tour. damn..i was totally oblivious of tt..my husband was supposed to 'accomapny' me all the way till i reached causeway. but obviously, like ANY TYPICAL HUSBAND, he fell asleep..haha. the trip was aight. so many lil kids..not trying to sound paedophilic or watever, but they were the source of entertainment for me while i was on tt island...reached singapore on sunday nite. too shag to even bother bt sch. so, i self-declare another public hol.

29th march 2005
went to lynn's place to use her com. wahah. im so brave lor!!i didnt scream or run wen i saw kitty staring at me with those pathetic hopeful lethal eyes!!kudos to me! anyways, it was fun slacking/mugging at her place..thanks lynnnnnnn!!!

anyway. it was cathy's burfday last 30th april. miss tt lady.partner in crime back in my secondary higher mt class. anyways, happy birthday sweets!!

1st april 2005

april fools day. belum2 dah kene trick ngan makcik pagi2 kat canteeen..*roll eyes*..oh yeah mei chee got her own version, april's fool. hah. tts her i guess..

2nd april 2005.

had training. ok lah..not too tiring or anything. me, mad n wai ching went to get charles' b'day cake..aft tt, me n gorgeous in pink n micro mini gaya headed to kfc for lunch. she had to leave for tuitioni couldnt resist temptation. decided to call lynn..weehee..so happy. after tt i zoomed to her place..
met sugar pei lee aft tt. n headed to town. wooohoo. my bag was filled with killer gas. the rain had totally drenched my shoes, shin guard n shirt..so, imagine the stink! ok...tt's not the pt.me n pl walked ard town aimlessly waiting for vans (spell:steam face).had dinner at swensens. vans was supposed to treat me ice cream. but the weather was a tad too cold for ice.. took neoprints...cool..

oh..sunday, at madrasah. my (and lynn's) new besfren had a chance to pick our paper!! wahah..ok, im so mean..but cant help it la. he's just so funny..anyway i caught lynn drooling over someone..woohoo...dia cute eh lynn???

just cant wait for this weekend. gg to m'sia for training camp.:)