hmm.haven blogged yet a proper blog for a long time.dunno wher to start.anywaysss..

on the FOURTH of june, i met a few pri sch frens.it was the most magnificent outing by far. me,lynn,san,mar,taufik,adib,zul,fazli,syed.beach n bowling.i had lotsa fun but but but,HE wasnt there.uuurgh.i must say tt i was a lil sad bt tt.but nvm.theres always another day.plus, july is coming real soon.
oh.miss fazlin got married on tt day too. -smiles-

on the SIXTH of june.had bf at prata hs.tt nostalgic place.then,met fizah to get the yrbk.bloody hell.tt bleeding bitchy clerk is still werking there.n wat made my stomach cringe was tt my sec sch has transformed into a museum.n juraimi is suspended.like, wat???gosh. i found out tt i sorta admire him few mths b4 Os.now, after wat he did, i shall re-consider my admiration towards him.but then again,i'm a lil sceptical.

on the SEVENTH of june, me and shah embarked on a shopping spree at johor.like wat shah wrote on the blog, we kept getting unwanted/unwelcomed attention/stares frm pathetic/nvr-look-into-the-mirror mats.eeek.went there n shopped for burfday presents.not mine.but others.

on the TENTH of june. it was syawal's burfdae.n i had dinner at macs,courtesy of my darling lynn.hehe.u n my besfren shd go out MORE MORE often. *winks at lynn*

on the ELEVENTH of june. he smsed me.woohoo.n he said we shd meet up to exchange burfday presents.n i totally agree!

on the FOURTEENTH of june,my class had a class outing.it was alrite la.

on the FIFTEENTH of june, which is like a few hours ago, i met besse n steam face for ice cream at swensens.hehe.steam looks prettier now.somehow.


anyways.life's been kinda bad for me.i wish i wish i wish n i pray that Allah will save me..im not abt to give up.
but its hard wen im trying n the rest aren't.
its sad wen they just don care.
its not fair. its really not fair.
i cried.but i didnt cry because of sadness.
my tears carried the hatred.anger.frustration.
its just unfair..
i dunno wat else to do.
frens told me to relax n concentrate on my studies.
but i realise.i cant do the former.
i hate those who give up.
i hate those who dont try.
hate them.
coz its just not fair.wen im trying hard n they just don care.
it seems like i've lost so much.
so much more than wat i had in the first place.
n once again.they dont care.
i wish.that maybe for once, for just one moment,
they will think.
and love.amin.
i dont think its ever tt hard to stop being egoistical for a slpit second.
i cant bring myself to put tears into other eyes.
but i dont get it y they dont feel the same.
its not fair for me to hold back all these.
for i think i'll die frm heart attack soon.
but really.i don mind.i'd rather be next to God than anywhere else.
but then again.god hates those who give up.
so.im gonna keep trying.