yay! feeling happy today.


sch was aight today, tho i was like half inch close to skipping it. main reason for not skipping was hockey tt came aft tt.anw, we had chinese new yr celebration in the newly air-conditioned hall juse now.ahha..borring like hell.sec sch celebrations yrs back were 10 times more entertaining than this..but i had fun nevertheless.coz i had the next door muggers/n we were practically entertaining ourselves..tina,fizzah,wingz,flor n me.

anw, the grreat fun came aft the whole oh-so-cool celebration.hockey!!! i held my stick with such fulfilment after not touching it for what seems like eons. yay!! hit ard excitedly.like we were all so ecstatic.i can still hit!! yay-nesS! if only sch was all abt hockey..hai. haha.anw, im very proud of jesse. she's a greatt lil bugger captain. all the best to aj hockey.next yr sure win one lah.hah. oh yeah, the penang trip is not confirmed yet.bleah.sch's such a pain in the arse.

aft hockey, shah and i excitedly rushed to mcD to catch bf.yay! we talked bt stuffs n shah was so laser when she asked me a qn tt will provoke any chi girls.haha.and when she realised tt she was talking a tad too loud, she started laughing, u knoe, tt im-so-embarrased laugh.then she was like..err, yeah, u knoe wat i mean? and so i said, 'of course! it was so loud and clear' haha..

anw, mugger asked me if i am attached.i don get it why girls like to ask me tt qn.even my kepo jrs, izarina n farah also asked me.haha.why do ppl ask tis kind of qn? haha.do i haf a desperate face?? haha..oh well,i dont mind them asking,provided they help me find someone to be attached to.hehe.

oh, jama's class got detained today until 3 plus as one of them came late on monday.i feel tt tt is so close to extreme madness. hullo, its teachers' day.like.wth. if i were them, i'd start kicking n throwing chairs and tables everywhere man! im meeting her tmr..miss her so much..so so much!

alrite.i'm doing gp time prac aft this. the second one this wk..all the best to me.

lesson learnt today: be yourself always.dont be a hypocrite.even if u do, jgn menyusahkan org lain.

akhlak mulia no.2
mengasihi Rasulullah saw.
-cinta dan kasih kpd Baginda mesti direalisasikan melalui perilaku kehidupan harian.
so, boleh buat spt berikut:
-sentiasa bersifat benar,amanah,menyampaaikan amanah Allah swt.
-sentiasa menunjukkan rasa hormat kpd teman.
-rajin melawat org sakit.
-sentiasa mengucapkan tahniah kpd teman yg berjaya.
and the list goes on..very long ah.


anw,subu's long absence has kinda worried me. so, i called his hm to check if everything's ok. well, everything is.its just tt he's sick. well, i really hope he'll get well soon.

anw,i've made bessie jealous today! yessSS ah!! haha. tt cute guy smiled at me n not at u,bessie. he-he-he.

ok, i feel like talking abt Evolution now...what's evolution? err.not quite sure actually. but i think its about the changes.to be more precise, biological changes.anw, i really knoe nothing bt evolution..but i'm just curious,how is the theory of evolution linked to religions? are they even linked, in the first place? or do they contradict each other?
given the fact tt im asking too many qns and its clear enuff tt i knoe nuthing bt evolution, i shall end my entry here today.

my father bought me a book.100 akhlak mulia-hasan mohd ali.

akhlak no. 1
mengabdikan diri kpd Allah swt.
- sentiasa melakukan ibadah khusus dgn sempurna
-sentiasa bersedia mematuhi perintah Allah
-sentiasa menggunakan nikmat,pangkat dan kemudahan ke jln Allah.

semoga Allah bless kitorang semua. amin. (:

i've officially declared myself an anti-zionist!
i hate the jews!
ok, to be more precise, the israelis.
damn them.celaka betulllllllll.
i wonder whats life like for the palestinians.
occupation. apartheid. oppression. death. rape of territory. extinction. exile.
whoa. i can feel anger building up in me.
if only i had superpowers. i'd tear down the damn wall. aaargh!! kurang ajar betul.
barbed wire, monstrous blocks of concretes, check points, cruelty, f-up israelis soldiers.
its sad. my god. im not even there and im already feeling it.
not only are the palestinians deprived of their freedom, they are also separated from their family members..
why isnt the world paying enough attention to them??
america n israel. dua2 tak gune.
they talked so much bt sept 11. they talked so much bt iraq.
what bout palestine? what bt jerusalem?
bloody hell..
aaargh!!! im an angry person now..
what should we do?
just because we're living happily in singapore, does tt mean we have the right to ignore whats happening to the palestinians?
what can we do??
doa je cukup ke??
sedih ah..this is sadder than having my parents not talking to me for 2 days.hehe. no, serious.
what can we do?
anyone out there with answers?
ok, if u guys are like totally oblivious as to what i've been talking bt for the past 5 mins or so...katak bawah tempurung betul ah korang ni...u can like do research ah.. erm, can try typing 'palestine,israel, apartheid' in the search engine box..

i better do some relaxing stuffs after this, or i'll end up being heart-attacked.

location:my house
time:2.30pm

fir was at my place just now to collect his shoes but somehow he invited himself to eat lunch at my place.mum,fir and i was eating when the doorbell rang.wait, i dont have a doorbell.we heard knockings on the door..

voice outside: halo halo. halo.
me and fir opened the door and saw an apek.

fir: ah apek? ada apa?
apek: lu tinggal sini ah?
fir: yah.apasal apek?
me in my heart: aik? bile mase die tinggal sini?
apek: lu tinggal sini ada bising-bising tak?
me: aa..
fir: ada.wah tak bole tahan.
me: . . .
apek: ada? wa ingat ni mesti pasat 7th month wor.
me: ??
fir: lu dengar bunyi apa?
apek: itu bunyi bising. wah ingat ah, ada benda talak baik duduk atas lu punya lumah.
fir: benda talak baik?
apek: hor.itu bad spilits..
me: ??
fir: hantu ah apek??
apek: haha..wa tak tau la
fir: lu ada nampak hantu.hantu hungry ghost??!
apek: wa bulum nampak..haha.
apek: ini wa mau ciakap samu lu..kita jilan sama jilan misti tolong sama2 wor.. wa mau panggil itu sem-mayang punya olang mali sini.
fir: wahaha.bagus tu apek!
me:???
apek: haha.okey,wa mau piki beli paper. lu baik2 hor.
fir: ok apek. ciao!

me: ade hantu kat rumah atas?
fir: haha..takpe, tu jilan kau yg caring tu nak panggil olang semmmayang mali sini.
me: eh, but i've never seen tt apek before.since when did he become my neighbour?
me: plus, mane ade bunyi bising2 kat rumah ni? pandai2 je.
fir: silap2,die hantunye.haha..
me:tak gune. -_-'''

who am i to judge them?
i live my life with imperfections.
i accept my flaws.i'll accept theirs' too.

you and me :)

israelis out of gaza?

okies, so i was stoning in class when i saw bessie's newspaper article.n i was shocked.like totally.cummon, i mean who wouldn't? the president of israel actually ordered its people, the israelis, the jews, to leave Gaza. gosh! why? i dont think the reason tt many optimists came out with as to why sharon did so is totally valid.well, im a little sceptical. i mean, they've been fighting over that land for god knows how long and as a result, many lives were killed. and now, they are like 'giving up'? well. hopefully, what sharon claimed was the reason for coming out wif such order is true, that is, to resolve conflict n bring about peace. hopefully the muslims there will live peacefully.hopefully thats the end of the merciless killings..but then, will the israelis actually accept its president's decision. u knoe, i haf this anology. its like u and ur not-so-good-fren fight over a.err.. last piece of a special limited edition shoe at the boutique , both of u are stubborn n neither wants to accept defeat or give in..hehe..then, u have ur mother who actually stops u 2 from fighting n actually asks u to let ur fren (whom u've declared war wif) have the shoes. u have no choice but to listen to her..u knoe, tt kind of thing...ok.i dun really knoe my motive of adding that unnecessary anology..

anw..my day today was quite interesting.
1. steam steamed a lot today.maybe its tt time of the mth when the hormones steam excessively.

2. made a thank u note for mr tan.very creative..huahua.

3. went to mug at amk lib. but yong chuen spent like almost 1 hr sleeping on the couch.hahas. but nvm, smart asses like him dont need to mug.they r naturally smart..errgh!

4. shared our study table wif an ex ajcian who was the puma hs captain last 2 yrs.he was very nice la.his ntbk provided me wif some musical,audio entertainment. n he was so kind to actually lend me his jacket when he realised tt i was feeling cold...:)

5. i saw a star blinked so brightly. n the moon was so bright..Subhanallah..so gorgeous.

okies.tts all.ciao.mug hard everyone.

hullo bloggggie.niari takde ape2 cerite menarik.so..i decided to blog down interesting smses/replies i got these few days on my dear hp..

160805/lynn:oh.nolar.thought wanna meet n go central buy rotiboy.hah.
160805/besse: hey! i've bought lots of packet sugar! and a couple of tea bags too....
160805/fafa: jumbulicious! just wondering are u n shah gg for the prom?
170805/ eric: hey pembatu..staying back to study a?
170805/cousin syawal:i was jus trying to find ways to spend time wit ma precious
cousin.lunch someday?
170805/cousin syawal:u keep care.have fun yar.holla at me for anything aight.be well little
princess.
180805/liyana: eh babe.nice meeting u just now.take care babe.

my schedule has been evolving ard anything n everything related to mugging.
weds: mug wif seekie in the lib.
thurs:mug wif shah outside lt1.
fri: will be mugging w yong chuen at amk lib.

wow.how fun.

time: 0530 hours.
location: my room.

i was studying. or stoning.or whatever i was doing for tt matter. then, the window creaked..well, i thot it was the wind.but somehow i felt tt there was someone (or something) at my window..ok.wait,the window was locked..so, i stared at the window.n i cud see someone's shadow.so i switch off my light.n guess wat? there. i saw a clearer shadow. bloody hell! some fucked up loser came to my window again.cummon lar,u can see nothing thru the window.so wats the point of standin outside my window??.im angry.kao!!

well.i've got an announcement to make.

yay! no contest for the Elected Presidency.

Mr Nathan received a walkover on Nomination Day, 18 August 1999, on his
first Presidential Election.

It is a scene that will be replayed this Wednesday, when Mr Nathan returns
to the same nomination centre as the only one to receive a Certificate of
Eligibility to contest the polls.

Not only is Mr Nathan well regarded and respected for his public service,
he is also a man of integrity, good character and reputation.

-CNA

guy: err..hi..i got some problem la.
guy: im a chinese,my mak melayu but my father chinese.
guy:problem die mcm gini, i baru kuar penjara on 20 july
guy:(took out torn papers/letters frm his pocket to prove tt he just kuar penjara)
guy: u nak bace tak?
ME: err..takpe la.tak payah.
ME dlm hati: wth.
guy:my father baru meninggal la.my mother sakit tenat.
ME dlm hati: ni gerenti nak mintak duit dari aku nie. nincompoop betul!
guy:u ade duit tak? $10 ke, $5 ke..ade tak?
ME:sorry.takde.tadi baru bayar school fees.
ME dlm hati: kalau die ingat lakonan die bleh menang grammys,aku nye boleh menang oscar!
guy: duit syilings pun takde?
ME:tak.serious takde.
guy: huh? asal?
ME dlm hati: ewah2.do i look,sound,smell n taste like a bank?
ME:sorry..i gtg..
guy:eh.kejap.u ade contact number tak? u knoe,i wont be like this forever.
guy:i org jahat,ok,used to be org jahat.but i nak berubah.
ME: -smiles-
ME dlm hati: berubah? cam betul je. rambut kalahkan s'pore flag. semangat universal
brotherhood lah konon.
guy: u, u ader steady tak?
ME: err..takde.
guy: (adjusted his shades n gave me an ultimate flirtatious smile.)
guy: betul ke ni?
ME dlm hati: wahlao! disgusting! darah UUPPP seh!
guy: u boleh kasi ur hp no tak??
ME: sorry,my hp no cume my parents je yg tau.
ME:ok,i really need to go.
guy:u taknak kasi number kan?
guy: ok,ape kate i kasi u my number?
ME dlm hati: eee.tak kuasenye.terime kaseh je lah.
ME: nolah.takpe.
ME: (walked off)
guy: u tak nak jadi steady i lah namenye nie?
ME dlm hati: nak nak.nak sangat.

if his hair wasnt red, if he had no tattoos on his fore head,neck, arms n everywhere, if hadnt been jailed, if he looked 10 times cuter, i might consider.hehe.

me and sugar pei lee.
happy national day everyone!

yikkes! i just got back hm. okie dokie, let me tell u wat telah happen the whole of todae.

well.in the morning, i woke up on my own.thats a great accomplishment u knoe..apparently, the cold war was still on in the morning.tho she gave me money when i was having bf,she refused to let me salam her..*seddddih!*

ok.so sch celebration was aight la.the picnic on the field was obviously cancelled due to the rain. guang guang was absolutely cute la.haha..the merlion, the mane, the guys calling him sweet charity,the guitar n the hm song.very neat.hahah.

after tt we watched the S'pore Gaga 50 mins movie.not tt i actually timed it, but tt was what i was told during the meeting.aneeeways. gaya,me and pl were like so addicted to tt hello $1 song.wth!the whole thing was kinda crappy i must say. or maybe its was a tad too abstract for ppl like me who was in a lazy-to-figure-out-the-story-behind-the-story mood.ok.wateverr.

aft tt, me,pl n hottt gaya got changed.yay! we were supposed to catch charlie n the choc factory.thanks to our terkedekkedek-ness,we reached the theatre only to find a frrringging long queue..fed up!so, we headed to lucky plaza when za joined us for cheap-o pool.it was fun i must say except for the 2 shithead mats next to us.like wtf.i was freaking burning man.they shd keep their stupid eyes to themselves or their pool table,at least..not like they could play properly.their white ball was flying everywhere.yeah.everywhere.eeeergh.irritating sob.desperados.curse them frm head to toes.ok.watever.besok mate dorang gerenti tembel.confirm!

oh oh! we took neoprints.so purrfect lah.splendid. confirm! haha.we kept using tt word thru out the day.confirm! even the 2 stupid stomache-irking mats immitated us by saying tt word. KEPO. KAY-EE-PEE-O.confirm!

ok.after tht,vans joined us n so we talked2 la.our normal routine. then we headed hm.

aneway, i was supposed to go hm la n pl was supposed to go to katty's place for a bbq.n in the end, i found myself at katty's place. makan free,sape taknak.n its halal, so ok ah. i met hafizah n other j1s yg tak begitu dikenali.bbq went fine.then suddenly katty n pl n mei chee decided to dunk xiao jun(dunno how 2 spell) into the pool..anw,it was fun.haha! i also took part in the action.well, i thot i was kinda safe frm being dunked as i got quite a reasonable reason.u knoe. tah yi mah.haha.but no,i was wrong!i was dunked also la.haha.n because of tt...my beloved watch is spoilt! ape seh..celaka empat belas betol! baru tukar battery.sedddih! i've become so attached to tt watch..wuahh! i thot swiss watches r supposed to be very resistant to water.ape la.

oklah.hopefully when the screws n the lil gadgets in the watch have dried up, the watch will be aight..slim chance.

ok.im so shagged.haha.like wat fir said, 'penat giler babs'. anw, i miss u seh fir.study hard there n stop ogling over the aussie 'aweks aweks' (as u call them)...coz many s'porean ones r waiting for u here!

alrite la.better go off now.the laundry's screaming for attention.

mission yg berimpossible telah pun aku accomplish.

i've sent 35 greeting cards to all my friends!

hehe.but its e card lah.its free e card la.and..its the same for all 35 cards.hehe.

but but but.at least i did send..

alrite.gtg now.little wati wants to watch the adventure of madeline tt i've dl.

one wish: just one wish:i dont want to be adults like them.

i shouted n say words that hurt them.those words hurt me too.it was like using a knife with the blade in my hand. im cracking.i dont need another fall to break me altogether. yeah.

tears can nvr heal wounds. so i shall stop crying.stop tearing.yeah.

i have one reason to be sad but many reasons to rejoice.so why shd i cry?

alrite.i have something to blog abt..

i have a dream..wait.its not the martin luther king jr's speech.it's the thing u get to watch when u're in lala-land. watever.

anw.i had a dream.it was interesting i must say.and remember.its a dream only.
i dreamt of this guy fren whom i used to be very close to..its kinda weird coz its not like i've been thinking bt him or whatsoever. weird. ok.so in the dream.he and i were supposedly ex-bf n gf..n i was kinda angry wif him for godknows wat reasons.wait.i bet i must have dumped him n not the otherwise...well, i was at some place doing some charity work when he came in a truck/car/van ..cant rmmber.then he got out of the unidentified vehicle n came up to me, after hearing news tt i was conned into buying something very expensive n useless.he chased after me to like donate money into the nurul ain's fund..but i kept walking away n he kept chasing.eventually he caught up wif me and took my hand n stuffed the money into my hand..it was only 5 bucks ah.haha..kirim salam sudah.in return, i took his hand back n stuffed the 5 bucks into it. n weirdly plus suddenly, i was like holding on to his arm..the way i'd do if im wif my dad..anw, we walked for quite some time n i remmber having anger building up in me.then, he asked me why was i very stubborn. being the born-defensive me, i retorted ' u are worse.u are egoistic!' then the argument went on. then he claimed tt i have so many shoes and i'm selfish. naturally, i countered it but pretty much wif no link to the shoes part, coz in the first place, i dont even have many shoes. so i answered 'at least im not egoistic like u'.then the alarm went off.n i woke up.anti-climax eh?

wen i was climbing out of the bed,i suddenly realised tt he IS egoistic..but am i stubborn n selfish? hmm.watever la.

anyway. i talked to cousin just now.
me: eh..i have a burning qn..is ego a common feature among guys?
cousin: guys.....they..err.. are generally egoistic.
me: yesh! i agree ah. anw, frm ur pt of view, wat are the things they normally do tt r ego-driven?
the voice in my head:interrogate die habis2 ah.
cousin: eh! im not egoistic okaaay.
me: (silent)
the voice in my head: yeah rite
cousin: errr..ok.a bit la. ok... erm..egoistic guys..they refuse to tell u things tt will make them look weak.they will abstain themselves from doing things tt will make them seem less superior. they will refrain themselves from making u feel like they need u.
voice in my head: wah piangs!


oh.btw.me n hott gaya went to ntuc just now.we went for locker-stocking.haha. we bought biscuits, honey starrrs,chocolates n a tin of milo.(besides the cup noodles, the thermo flask in the canteen can play other roles) ..milo n butter crackers.a gd combi in my opinion.

well, anyway,i had a meeting wif mr ong just now. we talked for like 1hr.he's a nice teacher wif a biiig heart.n he said its not possible for me to top aj.wahaha.i said amin str away.who knoes if there were angels flying ard,they will say amin too? im so motivated la..actually, our meeting evovled ard everything and anything except sch..

alrrite la.i feel quite useful now.coz u know why? i've done quite a lot of revision today..yeeps.





peace outt.

it was a confuckulated day.
go figure.


im damn tired.knackered.

oh u knoe something.life is full of disgusting ppl.haha..pretty fugly ones.they just need to keep their mouths shut n this world will be a beautiful place.

ciao.