hey.
life's ok. been busy. aargh.
oh hoho. saw adib in school just now. u'd nvr knoe how excited n happy i was!!

i got punk'd. not tt ashton punkd.but i saw this punk guy.the cutest in the history of punk after joel frm gc.

stayed back in sch today to study. eeergh. went for lunch with pei lee n the two superbly big track guys n a couple more. wahah. intimidating seh.

back in sch, behind the hall, after solat, got this trio frm synapse. they interviewed and recorded me and muni.cam bodoh seh. our answers were freaking lame ah.i think they'll consider sending it to KIDS SAY THE DARNEST THING.wahah.

alrite.now im at home. Feeling half dead. Better sleep now. hard day tmr. we'll be having a match against the st nicks. can hardly wait. ok. peace outt.

life has been alrite. weather is hot.
and i feel dreadful.
missing so many ppl.
missing my brothers and friends. aaargh.

today was alrite. nuthing interesting happened la except that i discovered today tt no one will dare to bully me in school anymore. coz i got someone to protect me. madness.lol.
saw alycia today. good thing she didnt see me. or else, i wud have been late for sch..school was aight. came early today. had that groggy feeling in my head. aaargh. then. everything was normal.
stayed back to mug in sch while waiting for shah and went hm after tt.
saw hidayat, my pri sch tuition fren. wahaha.i bet i saw a streak of blonde underneath his meshcap. n he was with my sec sch touch rugby captain (2002). woohoo. waht a small world. everybody seems to be related to somebody..
oh. yan invited me to his fren's chalet. haha. like wth. i'll feel so left out there. especially when there'll be so many mats skimmers there. err. thanks for tt offer. i'll give it a miss tho.
oh yeah. adib gt discharged today. he seems alrite. alhamdulillah. hope to see him soon. he got 17 days mc! dang!

• liza leaving for canada tmr and guess what? she didnt even tell me until 8 pm just now!! she's gonna stay there for 3 yrs with her foster parents. and i didnt even know!!!!!!!
• michelle and derek broke up like last january. and guess what?? i didnt know too. not until i met her at sembawang shp ctr just now. gosh. michelle is like my very good fren and i was the first person who knew abt her n derek being together last year. and this time, im the last to knoe bt their breakup.
• oh great. one more thing. one of my cousin just came back frm KL. so i called to ask when is she gg back there (she's studying at a U there). and guess wat? she said, she has stopped schooling since early this yr. and i didnt even knoe. why why??
• adib's gg/went thru the operation today. n i didnt even know. was talking to him online yesterday nite n he didnt even tell. great.
• and a good fren of mine refuse to tell me wahts been bothering her all these while. i insisted tt she share wif me her troubles but she claimed tt theres nothing bothering her. pls la, not coming home for 2 days for no reason is nothing meh?

im super irritated. not quite sure with who. but come on. who wudnt be irritated or affected by what i just mentioned above. when i asked liza why she didnt tell me earlier, she said she didnt want to trouble me. like. wth.

and i asked michelle why she didnt call or talk to me bt it. she said she knew i was busy. she didnt want to bother me. wat?? when was i ever busy to the point i dont have time to comfort my broken-hearted fren?? when?

and my cousin. she's the best. when i asked her why she didnt tell me all abt it when i met her at gramps on hari raya haji, she said, ' oh, i thought u wudnt even care to know. yelah. u kan busy woman'...i feel like fainting!

oh. and adib? hai. nvm.

is it my fault for being busy? or appearing busy? havent i've been always there for my fren? havent i've made myself clear when i said 'u can always count on me no matter when' to them? aargh!!

woohoo!

ok. where do i start?
sunday
i didnt sleep after waking up at 12 am. went to meet them at far east flora n got really excited -as usual. the flowers were gorgeous. went to vans place n prepared them roses. ouch! thorns pricked me deep. bloody hell. small thorns, yet strong pricking sensation.
went hm ard 7 plus. waited for pei lee to come over to do the fondue. decided to mug a lil. but this captivating movie on tv totally absorbed me into it. so, chem aside. tv first. pei lee came ard 8 plus with part time stead- benjamin. nice guy. we did the fondue. was very satisfied indeed. -smrks-

monday
alrite. busy day. cousin came to sch to fetch his flower. he's so sweet. he was checking his roses, counting them.... "8, 9, 10. ok, this is for u sweets." (he passed me a pink rose)..so sweet. ok. jay gave me too. got one more frm dunno hu. haha. got other cute gifts frm ma angels. gave besfren a super large star balloon. yep. reached hm n was super shocked when i saw a teddy bear placed on my window. as u knoe, my window is the corridor one. n the teddy bear was frm fir. thanks darling. u keep ur ass off ma window will u?

ok. chillin now. apparently torn b/w grammys n msn. husband got 2 weeks excuse frm pe. wahah. he better keep care n dont act as if he's some superman. aight. gtg. peace outt.

training was catastrophic. (is tt how u spell it?)
but its always good to think otherwise.
training was upbeat-ly great.
confirmed-muscle cramps tmr.
but its alway good to think otherwise.
im gonna be oraite.the cool down ex will ensure no post-training pains.
they shouted at me. but its reali ok. i only listen to the good things.
he said i shd be focused and not think bt boys too much..puhhlease.

tmr. or shd i say 3 hrs later. im gonna meet vans at far east flora to collect our roses. splendid. im excited. IM GONNA BE RICH AFT VDAY. hecklar. so wat if tis sound materialistic. i dont have any special somebody to make a splurge for and im earning the money tt others spend. wahahah.

met jamakyah today. we were so excited upon seein each other. gosh. miss her like crazeee. saw sab y'day. and daniel. and saidah. adilah saw me but i didnt notice her. its very exciting when u meet someone hum u've not met for a veh veh long time.

i just learnt this word. ululate.howl wail. haha.

in my pursuit to break my habit of being nocturnal during any holidays, i have to bow to the inevitable- i failed. my 10mins-ahead-of-time clock showed the time.its bed time. or shud i recorrect it. its past bedtime. dang!
chatting with yong chuen now. we didnt plan to stay up to catch the match later. but since both of us are accidentally high on caffeine, soccer is first in our why-we're-still-up list. but wtheck. the bed is calling me.
listening to maklah's n utt's blog's song. nice. n apparently it works as a lullaby.

anyway. to all muslims out there, happy new yr. tt sounds weird. well. anyhows. hope our year ahead will be filled with blessings frm God Almighty. Amin.

anyway. i just have to do this mind racking thinking now. i'm not chalking this shit up like i've got some extraordinary vision quest or anything like that, its not that at all. its just that im acutely critical of whats happening to ppl ard me. ppl change. rite? some for the better. some for..uurgh. irritay..ting.
Considering that through thousands of years of written record we humans have still not been able to pound out exactly what it means to be a somebody to someone, i dunno if i have the rights to talk abt it here.
ok. as u can tell. im talking too much. not knowing exactly wat im rambling abt.
somebody. tape my mouth pls.

before i resort to talking nonsense here, i think i better retire. i've set aside tmr specially for mugging purposes.hail me.

hail me?
shit. wat was i thinking?
ok. the bed has summoned for me.
im talking cockles.
bleagh.

woohoo! happy chi new year.


the cny concert was C R A P P Y (pronounce as: non-sense). but i enjoyed myself tho. thanks to samuel.besse.stephen's sao.mr seet n gang. co was great. lion dance too. had REUNION breakfast w usual suspects frm 24o4.me,gaya,pei,vans n za.besse mia. she has some cny prep.some other day besse.went to town. took neos.


went hm.slept.woke up ard 5.irritated.but nvm.went to meet cousins n uncles n aunties wif ma parents.off to changi village for dinner. wth.so many cats. went to the beach.syafiqah n aqilah damn cute.thinkin of gg to the beach again. most prolly wif syafiah.


went for supper. BLACKOUT. suddenly my phone beeped. NAZ: haha.blackout. he saw me.he was there at the restauant... NAZERUL. so what if u apply sunTAN lotion and i have to apply sunBLOCK lotion? hahas. careful. too much burns is no good.prone to skin cancer. haha.dunnola.


went hm.talked to Fanah. hehe. analyser. analyst?(?) thanks.anywys, im not in love. n no need to predict anymore. haha.
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++all the best to yong chuen. im SUPER excited for him. lalalala.
++got msg from ALFIYAN. my all time favourite boy. ahah.
++to lynn. i BERSYUKUR..wahaha.
++to Utt.all the best for ur hockey/frisbee/and ape ape lagi match. haha.
++i want my phy tb.naim? thik?

so. im sensitive?
watever.
u are just so egoistic,
watever.
so sad now. lost. n a lil confused. bloody hell.
wah. really unbearable.
irritating.
im not angry.
am i?
i dunno. but i knoe im sad.

heyo.
this week has been an extremely busy week. god knows why.
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last thurs. i hate last thurs. the day was terribly hot. uurgh. went to meet shah at the lib after sch to study wif her. settled on some business stuffs. doing alrite. yay! -
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last fri. nuthing much happened. pe was oh so boring. after sch, we set up the order booth. mr mohan is damn sweet. he ordered a dozen of roses for his wife!! oh my god! many others ordered. im so excited. after tt, i had ml meeting. okla. talked n laughed madly like always. watched the soccer match aft tt. aj soccer aint tt good i realise. tt's my point of view la. not reliable.
za said adib is her new best friend. WATEVER. I DON GIVE A DAMN.muahaha. met shah after tt at amk. got oranges. great.
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last sat. had training. was great. charles took over. n tt very session, i was scolded like so many times. haha. but nvm la. its for my own good. n the pitch ppl cheat our money. we still have 10 more mins and they started spraying the pitch. wth.

talked with the rest of the hockey girls. arguments. disappointment. i think we shd learn not to put blames on others. i think we shud learn to forgive. i think we should learn to be responsible. i think we shd learn to not argue rebelliously. i think we shd be strong n not let our own depression or stress be others' problems too. i think we shdnt do something out of anger n then come back to say sorry. i think we shd always think twice before letting go of our anger. i think we shd learn to appreciate others better. i think we shd all put our ego aside. ok. not all ego. but at least some.. yeah.

yay! after training, me n shah rushed. wahah. we ended up gg to the hawker ctr for desserts. haha. funny rite shah?? after tt, i headed to ttsh. went to visit my uncle. then went to novena sq n bought candles, made in africa. gosh. they were pretty. n given the fact tt they came frm a third world country.
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today. sunday. had madrasah. nuthing happened. yeah. gtg. chill.
peace out.

holla.
had x country yesterday. had mense cramps. dammit. got the 71st place. suck big time. wished i had a gun to shoot dead the 70 runners before me.

went for lunch at thomson plaza. thanks to mr ong who sent us there.ate like nobody's business.thanks to tt, stomachache and cramps. went to far east flora after x country. checked out the flowers. gosh. tulips that i saw were magnificently gorgeous.

my uncle came over to my cribs. talked to me. said i am the ONLY ONE who can change my family. i either make it or break it. i could see him furiously pinning all hopes on me. whoa. InsyaAllah, i wont disappoint him, mum and dad.

today-tuesday. was alrite. not late. Alhamdulillah.went to hawker ctr nearby for lunch. had maths test. n was very certain. strongly certain. that i screwed it up. it hit me like a nail in the head that one needs more than just completed copied tutorials to just understand the qns. bleeding d.e.

oh. nizar is mad. started calling me 'my wife' in front of the entire world. credits to flor for penning his names all over my notes. ridiculous. i find it really tacky. wat wif this hubby wifey thing? ahaha. watever la.

my business.
alrite. so, im selling ROSES, BALLOONS and STRABERRY FONDUE on the 14th of Feb. yups. vday. n im like soooooo totally bubbling with overwhelming excitement. my dad has been so supportive. he is sponsoring the capital.cousin helping to promote to the nyp-ians. cooliews.

oh.

we're over-seeing the organisation of the sports day held by my religious school

. is that cool or wat? actually it all started because, we the seniors dont want to take part in the games. so, the CLEVER me, decided to volunteer the whole class to organise it. haha. the girls are all set and ready. the guys? haha. dunno.

went to darul mawa last sun. was alrite. but tired. shima had a fight with her school mates. i felt damn guilty for not being able to do anything.. i tried to dig some personal info frm them. but they were rather reluctant to share it wif me. ironically, i prefer them doing so. coz if they were to spill everything into my face, i dont think i'll be able to take it. i get sad because of other ppl very easily.

alrite. gtg catch some beauty sleep. chill. peace outt.