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surreal,electrico,love me butch.

-no more stress-

i have this illusive happiness in me, now tt the mid yr tests are over.
my premonition says tt i'll date my vp again.hah.wth.
n i have a presentiment (?) that darling sugar will be joining us.
haha.she didnt really study as she was awfully busy with her b-ball matches n mahjong.
anyways, went to jln kayu with her just now after physics paper.woohoo.yums.

me n my girls should really spend more time together.we didnt meet up at all during the hols.we missed special occasions like pei lee sugar's and van's burfday.except for vans mini burfday celebration at swensens.n she insisted tt i go clubbing wif her at acid bar.haha.n being the oh-so-thoughtful fren of the not-yet-18-yrs-old-and wont-even drink-even-if-i-already-am me, vans suggested that i just drink the mocktail or coke.hhaha..yelah tu.

anyways, all the best to all the f.math students. *winks

i shall just..

drop on the floor

and

pretend to die

rite now..


or maybe i shd do tt tmr.in the classrm.just rite before the test starts..
melodramatic fool.

or maybe i shd get my ass off the com asap n start on chem.n happily sit for the test tmr with no extra drama. uurgh.i've come to conclude tt i cant really squeeze much into this peanut brain of mine..haha. *winks at lynn* ok.tis aint the time to wink ard.tis is the time to start werrrk! yups.

t e s t s coming real soon.yikes!
not really prepared.
but i guess, i'll be wen prelims n As come.
-yc said its bhb.but its good-
bleagh.haha.

n rite now.i feel like a guilty pig.coz i dint reply so many sms'es.n for rejecting their instant msges on msn.eergh.

gosh.cant wait for tmr.i miss my schmates.
n the end of tmr will mean tt i haf 3 more days to freedom-slightly.
cant wait!cant wait.

oho.i dreamt of alfiyan last last nite.
stupid me.dreaming of someone who might haf all forgotten bt me.maybe.
booo-hoo.
haha.

ok.i miss afizah.hahaa.she n her com.cock up.big time. -evil laughter-

sms chatted wif cikgu majidah yesterday..hmms.miss her too.

gtg.
all the best everyone!

change ur ways,wen u're young.

today was alright..

woke up late n got a msg from ryan.
apologising for not sending me a goodnite msg the nite b4.
haha.kinda funny.

met besse in sch.
saw M U G G E R.haha.she's the girl whom i saw everytime i went to sch to mug.
-well.tt makes me a mugger too-
heard the mat taPPered song frm fizzah's mp3.wahliew.funny song..
mat tappered oh mat tapperrrred...

was mugging when i saw rahman n syawal's fren-forgot his name..anyways, they came back to get their As certs..anyways, rahman is officially juli's bf.coolness.

studied all day.did other jcs math paper..uurgh.

had dinner at northpt wif besse.we had tt talk again.cool.
i feel guilty for complaining too much.
everyone has got a story to tell.so..yeah.
anwyays, we were in the bus when besse n i decided to speak in our OWN sign language.wahah.
n suddenly, tis lady beside us handed us a piece of paper..
why you hear.who speak sign language.
n i wanted to luff.but i held it back.gosh..coz the lady thot we were really using sign language.she's mute i guess.-oops.tt sounds a lil offensive-but it was funny lar..yups.

went online.chat wif yong chuen.hmm.feeling i.n.s.p.i.r.e.d. fffooooh.



tmr is a sat.i shall chill.

its unfair.
im irritated.
fuck man.
i dunno wat to say.
no one fucking understand anyway.
feel like putting a bullet into everyone.
look at em suffer just the way i want.
wen i see them smile.feeling happy.
i just wanna ruin it.make them not so lucky.
maybe its just my jealousy.
i dunno.i also wanna be happy.
but fuck it la.life's not fair apparently.
i hate it.coz i also wanna be happy.
uuurgh..

me and my f u c k e d u p mood.

its a monday.horrible.just one more wk.ok.wait.there's still one more week!!!

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow."
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin
Oh yeah,
your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all "Yellow,"
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know for you,
I'd bleed myself dry for you,
I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true, look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

sucha a sweeet song!

alrite.gtg now.got some scholarship interview tmr.shall schive before bed tonight.

ciao.

'all guys are the same.superficial,insensitive and moronic.'

i didnt say tt, somebody else did.but i kinda agree..hmmm.

i've been mugging all day.wat crap.cant wait for the common test to be over.cant wait.cant wait.


i still haf cousin's burfday present wif me.don feel like meeting him..eeergh.tt's bad.wonder y.


met my neighbour n she said i've lost weight..actually i think so too.lately,i find eating sucha torture..n all i wanna eat is macs or bk breakfast.or prata frm prata hs only..n i dont get any of em..so,im like not eating much...i'm so jealous wen i eat wif someone who eats a lot..like lynn,who can swallow down 2 mac double spicy in 2 mins, shah can eat nasi briyani,desserts and sandwich n still feels hungry,pei lee can finish the whole murtabak and my prata...not fair.i cant even finish the food i order most of the time..and somebody irritatingly reminds me to eat a lot.so much for being a caring husband. (wat a weird thing to blog abt..)


n i cant wait for july to come.
end of damn common tests.my burfday.baybeats.his burfday.yeah!

oh.did i say my second bro has left for the army? well, he has.n im very delighted.

good charlotte is coming to singapore.damn lar.i cant go.n i hate them for making the concert so big.s'pore indoor stadium.like wth.they shdnt have been too popular.expensive tix n i bet, extremely tight security.wth..wen ppl make it big,they become too irritating..haha..but i still love joel.

gotta butt off.later.

hmm.haven blogged yet a proper blog for a long time.dunno wher to start.anywaysss..

on the FOURTH of june, i met a few pri sch frens.it was the most magnificent outing by far. me,lynn,san,mar,taufik,adib,zul,fazli,syed.beach n bowling.i had lotsa fun but but but,HE wasnt there.uuurgh.i must say tt i was a lil sad bt tt.but nvm.theres always another day.plus, july is coming real soon.
oh.miss fazlin got married on tt day too. -smiles-

on the SIXTH of june.had bf at prata hs.tt nostalgic place.then,met fizah to get the yrbk.bloody hell.tt bleeding bitchy clerk is still werking there.n wat made my stomach cringe was tt my sec sch has transformed into a museum.n juraimi is suspended.like, wat???gosh. i found out tt i sorta admire him few mths b4 Os.now, after wat he did, i shall re-consider my admiration towards him.but then again,i'm a lil sceptical.

on the SEVENTH of june, me and shah embarked on a shopping spree at johor.like wat shah wrote on the blog, we kept getting unwanted/unwelcomed attention/stares frm pathetic/nvr-look-into-the-mirror mats.eeek.went there n shopped for burfday presents.not mine.but others.

on the TENTH of june. it was syawal's burfdae.n i had dinner at macs,courtesy of my darling lynn.hehe.u n my besfren shd go out MORE MORE often. *winks at lynn*

on the ELEVENTH of june. he smsed me.woohoo.n he said we shd meet up to exchange burfday presents.n i totally agree!

on the FOURTEENTH of june,my class had a class outing.it was alrite la.

on the FIFTEENTH of june, which is like a few hours ago, i met besse n steam face for ice cream at swensens.hehe.steam looks prettier now.somehow.


anyways.life's been kinda bad for me.i wish i wish i wish n i pray that Allah will save me..im not abt to give up.
but its hard wen im trying n the rest aren't.
its sad wen they just don care.
its not fair. its really not fair.
i cried.but i didnt cry because of sadness.
my tears carried the hatred.anger.frustration.
its just unfair..
i dunno wat else to do.
frens told me to relax n concentrate on my studies.
but i realise.i cant do the former.
i hate those who give up.
i hate those who dont try.
hate them.
coz its just not fair.wen im trying hard n they just don care.
it seems like i've lost so much.
so much more than wat i had in the first place.
n once again.they dont care.
i wish.that maybe for once, for just one moment,
they will think.
and love.amin.
i dont think its ever tt hard to stop being egoistical for a slpit second.
i cant bring myself to put tears into other eyes.
but i dont get it y they dont feel the same.
its not fair for me to hold back all these.
for i think i'll die frm heart attack soon.
but really.i don mind.i'd rather be next to God than anywhere else.
but then again.god hates those who give up.
so.im gonna keep trying.

woohoo!my com is so cool now.its fast.faster.fastest.thanks to my dear uncle samat.yay!

aight.gtg.meeting sugar layta.

peace outt.

computer aku sikit nye cepat niari.entah angin mane dah tiup.bagus jugak ah.

baru balik.tadi gi skolah kasi mr ong bende.actually nak jumpe die but then tibe2 malas.so, i decided to go for a jog.yay! felt so healthy aft tt.met alex at yishun interchange n we had breakfast at bk.n if the previous entry mentioned him having a new gf, this entry is abt him breaking up.apelah.baru 1 mth plus, dah break.u see lah,puppy love nvr last la.n thers no such thing as true love.no such thing as eternal love.merepek ah tu semua.coz u know y? guys can nvr understand girls n girls can nvr seem to pls guys.on a friend-friend level alrite ah, but beyond tt, things get screwed more easily than a screw itself.haha.stupid anology. oh anyways, bk breakfast is quite nice.cam kat hotel gitu lagi2 free pulak tu.haha.jakun seh aku.maklumlah, first time makan breakfast kat bk.

im meeting shah at ba'alwie mosque later.yay! so exciting.

till next time.peace outt.