hullo,



i feel so sems.
(semangat)



i actually looked thru the various modules under life sciences, NUS.
i actually counted how many modules.
so semangat yg membara.
actually, i just wanna make sure i am aware of what i'll go thru wen i accept this offer.
things can get so complicated. wait. things already are!
and with me being blur sometimes (and most of the time), i just need to clarify things.
remember. ignorance is never bliss.



im really looking fwd to a new chapter in my life (cliche as it may sound)
and even though im 1789% sure that i'll complain bt murderous workload in the future, i still insist on saying this..'i want to go back to school badly! i miss lectures and tutorials.'




oh, and i've pledged to myself, not to bitch about certain lecturers and how horrible they look or sound. coz, if u don respect ur lecturers, u wont be able to acquire much knowledge. i shall shut my mouth n not say things like 'is that tummy or is she just pregnant all yr round?' or 'eee..he must be the result of a positive negative feedback experiment' or 'is he blind or wat? everyone is sleeping, coz no one bothers listening to a half-bald living dead like him.' or 'i bet he uses that vibrator as his vibrator' or 'i think if she played nun in nightmare on elm street, i might mistake her for freddy' or ' she's so pathetic im sure she spent 3/4 of her life on maths and another 1/4 talking to her calculator'. these are the ones that i can still rmb. i m sure i said more. omg im so mean. :#



yesterday's syarahan taught me so much.

anw, i like wat Aa Gym(one of the 2 speakers who made their speech last nite) said.
he said something like this.
diri kita seperti teko. apa yg ada di dalam, itu lah yg akan keluar. kalau dalam teko ada kopi, yg keluar, kopi. kalau dlm teko ada teh, yg keluar teh. jadi, jika org berkata buruk kepada kita, jgn peduli.tidak usah dibalas dgn kata2 buruk lagi. kerana, yg bermasalah itu bukan kita, tapi org itu. kerana isinya keburukan, jadi keluarya juga kata2 buruk. bila org kutuk kita, cakap, its not my problem.i dun care. (chehh..ustaz speakingspeakong. )

wat he said totally make sense. if u only haf negative words to say about things, its not that those things are not proper, its just you.



oh..he said something like this too: masalah yg timbul itu bukan kerana ruang yg sempit, tapi hati yg sempit. masalah yg timbul bukan kerana kegelapan malam, tapi kegelapan hati.

fuyoo. so inspiring. so u know, before u conclude that your 'life is filled with darkness' and u feel like u 'need some light and guidance' from somewhere or someone or something, just look into yourself. for the real light that should be lighted up is the candle in ur heart. no ray nor beam from outside can light up ur darkness.and the only way to light up that candle, is by getting the lighter from Allah. (:
insyaAllah.