HULLLO/

i just woke up.
i left my com on while i went to slp n i cant believe how blaaaaaardy long it takes for me to send that file to fuad thru msn.
is everyone facing the same problem of slow transfer rate?


and right now, i feel a slight sadness in me.
i dont know why i feel this way bt what happened, when all along i know this is what i want.
yeah. i like him, but i dont want him to know or to feel the same way bt me. cos things will get complicated, and im not into those complications.weird. i know.
its always me telling myself how much i dont bother if he cares abt me or not. cos really, i dont really see the point in him doing so. but when i read the msg, i actually felt sad, what he said affected me more than it shd.
haiiii..
watever. he is still a fren, and yeah. friends remain and never can end. rmb that?

on a lighter note, the iftar i went for just now was clearly inspiring. theres more to life than just a university degree. we have to go all out n seek our goals. unfortunately, for girls, we cant go seeking for too long. yeah. if not, bila mau kahwin beb? haha. (those are hafiz's words btw). n yeah, so i shared with nurse lynn just now bt my worry of what my future will be and what i want it to be. too early to be discussed actually. haha. jodoh dan pertemuan di tgn tuhan (those are lynn's words btw). ahhahhaa.
oh well, i hope and im sure Allah will give me the best. i have faith. all i need, is to put in a gigantic hippotatamus effort into everything i do. yupps.
so im happy that i went for the iftar instead of the 'date'.
(and please, i am not dirty-minded. haha. i just happened to feel like laughing then.)


ok. after like 3 hrs, at last, the process of sending completed.
k. off to bed. (: (: (: (:

hullo!


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oh. anyone here likes the idol song?
http://h1.ripway.com/pink_cryptonite/HadyMirza-YouGiveMeWings.MP3

anw, i read ana's blog bout her wanting to shop and i am heavily influenced. i want to shop too!
(i know lynn is like rolling her eyes right this moment. reason is, i always nvr buy anything when im out shopping. ironic. i knoe.hahha. im tired of my shopping attitude. i always lose the shopping mood halfway. "typical customer". haha.) but i love online shopping! (:

i dunno why, but i feel like i have SO MUCH to say on my blog. on the other hand, my other blogger friends have somehow gone on a hiatussss. and my ex manager called home this morning. she wants me to come for some work. haha. cool. but too bad la, i haf schwork to do. which obviously i havent done. hurhurhur.

alright. thats it. slamat berbuka! (:

HULLO.


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im going to bali this dec!
and im gg to perth/melbourne next yr may!
(without my parents)
amin amin amin. pls pls pls make my plan work!
weeeee.

ok, im not gg on a holiday. im gg on a VERY tight budget trip.
n i wont b staying in 5 stars hotel.
cos i'll be tumpanging in ppl's house.
oh Allah, pls, let this work this time.
weeeeeeeeeee..



alright, its bulan puasa ppl,
keep that groping n gonj-ing till after ramadhan can?
so irritating, today, i witnessed sinful scenes.
like HELLLLO? tak bole tahan sikit ke? tangan tu, tak boleh stop meraba ke?
and to the girls, can stop being mentel for like until 7pm? urrgh.
tak boleh angkat lah sey.
k dah.


oh. i watched the stories of love just now.
the story felt so real. like omg.
:/


alright, to afizah rahmat, if u're reading this, u're invited to buka tgt with the borat&co. plus syafiah, on the 4th of oct, weds. we will be kpg glam-ing. (: (:

to everybody else who want to have a buka date with me, the lines are officially open, tho i cant puasa yet. hahahhaha.

alright, i cant be lame ah. later someone will ask..why are u so lame today?
hehe.

till tmr. (:



congrats to my dah ling lynn.
wee. drive me drive me.

HULLO.



indahnya hari ini. berwarna warni bak pelangi.
dan sang suria segar menyinari. kehangatan pagi ini.
haha. apa aku merepek ni?

ANW. i haf uploaded the labrador park picnic pictures on my photopg (:


yupp.
life is beautiful friends.
if u think urs isnt, u're wrong.
u just have to open ur eyes and open ur heart.
theres more to life than just problems.
and if u feel like giving up,
and when feel like u're losing ur iman,
wake up, and knock ur head 35 times on the wall
haha. no! thats suicidal.
just breathe in the fresh air,
take a break,
take control,
and yes, say some prayers.
may Allah bless u my friend.


(: http://www.ryc.org.sg
visit this website eh.

hullo.


ramadhan is here and im thankful that Allah has let me live to see this special day again.
i hope that this yr's ramadhan will be better than last yrs.
i'm not only praying for my health and mental and physical strength, im also praying for the best for my family. i hope things will change. amin. (:

im also praying for peace for our Muslim sisters and brothers all over the world.
may the violence stops and remains that way.
may there is enough food for the poors.
may everyone has a peaceful and blessed ramadhan.
amin.
(:

and to all friends all over the world, may this wonderful month be made full use to acquire as much blessings as possible. (:

anw, my terawih yesterday was good, alhamdulillah. there were no noisy and melalak kids. haha. everything went smoothly. and im so looking fwd to mosque-hopping. but all these have to wait. for one wk? haiyaa.

HULLO!!!

i blog panjang lebar yesterday lah seh, but it got deleted!
haiyaa.


anyway. the one wk break is herre! yesssaah!
im so loving it
and to all concerned parties, i am not gonna slack the wk away.
im gonna do my work, catch up with sch n at the same time, haf a good rest.
(: (: (:


oh, and like any other nights, im on the phone with lynn now.
check this out, my hp bill this mth is $183!!!!
hahaha!
but but buttt, hail free incoming!
haha. so, i dun need to pay all that. (: (:
i love talking on the phone!



alright, i so totally dunno wat else to write.
anw. ramadhan is soo ard the corner.
and ramadhan is my monthh, im not gonna terhegeh-hegeh in sch aftr 5pm.
i wanna buka at hm everyday (unless im buka-ing outside with my darlings) and i wannna terawih everynight! (: insyaAllah!

hullo!





its 2am here in s'pore. but its 2 pm there in new york.
and im so missing a friend lately :(
haiyaaa.


anw, these few days have been great!

met up with kak sha last fri for dinner n shoppping!
ok, i didnt shop, i accompanied her to.
it was great, catching up, sharing and most importantly, laughing at the same old jokes!

she made me realise a lot of things. lessons i wouldnt have learnt if not for her.
hah. its good to have a fren who's gone thru 15 more yrs than me and to share different perspectives on life. i've nvr mind sitting n listening to her for hrs. wonderful.

oh and yes, pizza hut cheesy bites is nice lah sey. (: (: nicer when its free. (: (:

anw, had a phone-talk with lynn tt night. so we were talking bt how guys change after they got married. sianze. and also what if we get tired of our partner?
and we thought (or dreamt, cos i shd stop thinkin, according to someone) bt what is an ideal relationship like. a clingy bf? a bochap bf? an i'll-nvr-get-sick-of-u bf?
bottom line is, dont get one laaah. haha.
oh n we agreed tt we shdnt say 'i know' whenever someone says something to us. or worse still , 'see? i told u!' or ' see? i am right' or 'see? im so smart!'. haha. walao..


thru the phone, i managed to talk to lynn's bro. and he somehow made me kinda think bt wat im doing right now. while he is currently SUPER BUSY with sch, i am..so free? when i have so much to do. i seriously need motivation to be busy like i shd man. really.

and i miss my girls. besse, pei lee, gaya and steam.
we've been thru SO MUCH tgt, back in sch. the tears we cried together, the conflicts, the 'clique shirt', the failures, the love. so much. their absence (except on tues evenings) makes me depressed. the conversation i had with besse the other night, bout she feeling the same way too, made me more sad. as if tutorials and assignments are not depressing enough, i have to sit here, missing the wonderful past and struggling with this slightly-depressing present.. oh Allah, pls give me faith and strength :(

ok ah. ain shd not be sad ah. (: (:

random prev posts.

http://silk-and-steel.blogspot.com/2005/08/yikkes-i-just-got-back-hm.html

http://silk-and-steel.blogspot.com/2005/11/yay-closer-and-closer.html

http://silk-and-steel.blogspot.com/2005/12/hullo-bloggie.html

http://silk-and-steel.blogspot.com/2006/03/hullo_24.html

http://silk-and-steel.blogspot.com/2006/04/and-if-u-tell-me-urs-i-will-tell-u.html

http://silk-and-steel.blogspot.com/2006/03/hullo-today-was-great-day.html

alrite. thats it! (: (:

hullo!

(: (:
wahh. 5 weeks of sch already!
aaaaand. im still not in sch mood.
i was supposed read my SEA politics stuff, but i somehow ended up reading my diary.
the one i wrote when i was still in sec sch. so i flipped the pages and one period of time caught my attention..sept 2001. haha. kau! sejarah silam! alright im gonna excitedly type down what i wrote. (see i told u, i always do irrelevant things like i haf nothing better to do or im so free like tt)

sept,2001.
i reached hm at 5 and not long after that, sabariah called. she said she talked to kenneth and this was how their conversation went.
sab: kenneth, u know or not if got anybody [who] likes u?
ken: haha. many ppl like me.
sab: if from express class?
ken: i know. nurul! i really really like her too.

at tt moment, i was shocked! and sab told me that ken wants me to know that. [wahahaa. im like laughing when i read this laaaa and i rmb being darn happy when i got tt news..]

anw, ken called me tt nite and we talked for a short while coz his bro and dad were there.

.bla bla bla.

the next day, i went to the computer lab to finish the project when i saw ken there. he was about to leave. the he said, goodbye my cutegirl! and i just smiled. so lame. i should've said sumfing nicer. anyway, he left me overjoyed and breathless! [breathless?! wahahha.]

after sch, aron told me ken was looking for me. so i followed him to meet ken. gosh... i said hi to him and walked off. after tt, when i was having lunch, sab came n told me that he actually wanted to 'sound me stead' [wahahaha. old skool term beb.] but i walked off before he could. [hurrhuuurr..whats new ain? and so i thought i've melepas the chance..]

ok. the end.
okaaay. actually theres a lot more. i tell u, when i read those stuffs, i could actually imagine myself being there all over again. (:

anw. let me get back to year 2006.
i met up with the 'clique' for dinner on tues. and as usual, it was tremendous. steam hadnt been joining us, busy woman ah. anw, we haf planned to meet up every other tuesday for dinner. weeeeee. best!
and yesterday, (or every wednesday for tt matter) is hanging out day with lynn. its true what her dad said : kalau ain dgn lynn share bilik (hostel), mesti tak blaja punya. kakakakikiki je.
toooo baad laaah. haha.

oh. here are some pics.

this picure was taken when i visited perigi hang tuah. this little is so tiny. haha. adorable.

hullo!!


if theres anything that moves very slow today, it HAS to be my cmputer.
haiya!

anw, my weekend was great despite the rush here and there.
and, from now onwards, i've decided that i should do my sch work on fri, sat morning and sunday evening. hah. i should stop doing things so last minute.

oh, kai got his enlistment letter alr. 10th 0ct. police. hahhha.


today, 11 sept, 2006, marks the 5th anniversary of the attacks of the twin towers in new york.
and till today, no one really knows who actually did it. oh well.


ok la. im outta here.

hullo!!

lifes been ok.
went for nisfu syaaban prayers just now with lynn and the parents, at ba'alwie. (:
i hope Allah will grant my wishes and answer my prayers.
pls Allah.
thanks.(: (: (: (:

some pictures that u readers may wanna see:

tralalalalala. bring me tmr and bring me that smile.
let go that sorrow and stay with me for a while.
we'll look at the sky and make it real.
we'll fly so high, tell me what u feel.

(: (: (: (: i want that special day to come quick.

hullo.



SEA politics lecture today made me ponder quite a bit.
we were introduced to a burmese political icon, aung san suu kyi.(ok, i dunno how to spell her name laaa.) it set me thinking, why did she go that far to pursue her dreams which is unlikely to realise? she lived for 6 yrs in quarantine, cos the burmese government saw (and still see) her as a threat to the political stability -or instability, i guess- in that country. and a student actually pointed out just now that she is still under quarantine! rabaak. she's so persistent and the ordeal she's been going through doesnt seem to erode her firm stand- to democratise burma/myanmar.
and i read in the news just now, that something similar took place in iraq. a woman, full of fervor and determination to fulfil the people's needs, has just been released after being detained for 2 mths. u may wonder, what despicable force has sent her behind bars for such an honest and patriotic desires? the answer is... i dunno. cos i very lazy to read the whole 3pages news! hahhaaa.


alrite. anw. life's been great.
it's has always been for me. (: (:
and things happening around me made me qn the meaning of love.

i dunno. but i believe that someone who loves for the right reason is a person full of sincerity, honesty, firm beliefs and flexibility. regardless of types of love.

if u're a mother, u love ur children all the same. u love the smartest as much as u love the less bright one. u love them all regardless of their achievements or material gains they lay before u. and as much as u are a firm mother n stand unwaivered when disciplining ur children, u are also flexible in adjusting ur approaches to suit the circumstances.

likewise, the love that binds a man n a woman. (hahaa. sounds so kental. anywaaay..)
love is not just a feeling. and that is why i totally disapprove those 'love at first sight' crap.
love is like centripetal force. haha. physics dok. its a resultant force. meaning, it doesnt exist if not for other forces.
u dont just see someone, talk to him/her for a few days and conclude : he/she is the one!
it takes time, a lot of learning, a lot of sharing and many spritual and emotional understanding, before u come to that resounding conclusion.

haha. i believe everyone (the girls i mean) must haf encountered at least one incident where a guy, she barely knows, actually asked her to be his girlfren. haha. tt happened to me a few times. how kental. i said yes to one of them. and it being kental, ended in a kentally indescribable way. ANYWAY. what im trying to put across here is, love is a beautiful result of sincere intentions and understanding and not just random intuition nor feelings.

having said that, i hope those out there, looking for a girlfriend or boyfriend, would b inspired by my ideology. hahahah.

oh. in case u're wondering, i am not in love. haha. and no. i dun haf secret boyfriend(s)....hahha.




ok kawan2. katilku sedang memanggil-manggil nama ku.
tido pun cantikk. (:

hullo!

a friend sent me this. listen to the song and understand the lyrics. (:



i hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
you get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',

Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder
where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and
wonder where those years have gone)

hullo!

oohh. for the past 2 hrs i've been doing sch work.
and for the past 2 hrs, the mother has been nagging at me.
out of the 10974298352968029381348985 sentences she said,
i heard 1/2.
and i gave 0 response.
thats wat u get when im doing my sch work. even a bullet-train speed and bomb-explosion volume nagging cant make me lose focus.
chehh. like real.

i cant believe she nagged at me for 2 hrs. for like 19 yrs, she rarrrrrrrely nagged at me.
and only recently she has decided to steer her nag-course towards me.
i dont understand.
so now, she nags when i go out. she nags when i go out to meet lynn.(hullo? its lynn?)
she nags when i come home later than 9pm.
she nags when she found out who i went out with.
she questions me, who. where. why. why. why. why. what. why him?
ok. so she nagged n nagged.
i caught this amidst the million words : jgn ingat dah besar boleh kuar dgn lelaki.
so funny. i've been gg out with guys for so long. and she knows tt. puhhlease.
why the sudden shift in paradigm? i dont wanna ask. cos asking will inflict more friction.
oh. and i caught something else too : ingat! tak dengar ckp, biar belajar susahsusah, nanti fail!

wahhhh. rabak.

and she loves to korek korek korek the past.
its not fair.
so what if my form teacher called her last yr and complained/talked to her bt me?
thats last year. thats so last year :(


u know wat, i shall stop nagging here.
i had a great day n 2 hrs of nagging dont necessarily have to spoil it.


hta open house was good.
went there with lynn n crazily-obsessed-with-cd-guys rashidah.

we climbed into many weird looking vehicles.
each with specific capabilities and functions.
but the best vehicle has to be the civildefence, 4-seater i-dont-know-what-its-called vehicle.
hehhehehehhee. the cd guy who was attending to us must've been the sweetest thing on earth.
and because i haf no boyfriend (looks at rashidah) and no boyfriend-to-be (looks at lynn), i can, for all i care, talk bout him till i lose interest and get bored. (: (: (:
jumpa lagi. how adorable. wahhh. haiiii.

oh! how could i have forgotten that we saw nizar at the entrance.(:
packed goodie bag sampai backache? aduhh. kesian.

anw, hafiz brought us ard the academy.
i am totally impressed with the surprising state of the senior officers' dorm.
i don mind having to book into tt room for 5 days a week.
lawa seh bilik. kalah nus nye hostel.
after that we went to the junior officers' dorm.
hahaa. now i get the idea. i started imagining what is it like if theres bunk inspection or when lights-off.
oh and 10 ppl in one room.
and the 3 of us unanimously concluded that the cupboard is too small.

i spoke to a lady officer and found out there are 30 of them there.
whoa. pressure seh. 30 of you and thousands of male officers. she is 4 mths through her prison officer training. whoa. *salutes*

after selengerly taking picture in that dorm, we went to the training village.
i was curious as to why its called a village. then, hafiz explained.
hahha. that training village reminds me house of the wax.
fake reality. haha. they had 24hr mini mart, fastfood-im eating it, savebank and! the best, mrt!
we took a picture in that fake mrt. cool. jln gasing?

we watched a few stimulated 'police-and-villain' operations there in the training village. of course they exhibited the most ideal cases. the truth is, i know its not that simple. and by the way, i saw azri. hah. he was the one who drove the police car and did some drift right in front of the jakunsified audience. haha.
overall-good acting ah people!

it was a great day- great company.
minuss the irrelevant naggings.



alrite. thats it.

hullo!


3 weeks of sch have gone past!
and its the first of september today!
may Allah bless our friendship till september first, 3000.


today was great. hjh maimunah lunch. (: (: (:

and, the brother came hm from camp today.
guess what he brought home with him?
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he brought home a snake!
whhhhat only.
he coiled up the long skinny green snake into a container and planned to give it to his ex-gf who dumped him. whaha. how mereps.
and i guess the snake is pretty much tame, for a snake picked up from the wild.
and it looks scary.
i rmb my bro bringing home some weird looking fat lizard n putting it on my mum's curry plant. madness i tell u. haha.
and when we were smaller, he'd pick up chameleons from trees and run after me with that.
thats my bro. hurrr.

alrite, i was talking to kai last night. he said i can join him for camps. school camps. or i can work with him, doing some outdoor stuffs. maybe i should be more active and accept that 'invitation'.
(: besides tt, he's a nice guy.


alrite. its time to get back to sch stuffs.
and yes. i want to buy a bag.
(: (: and pls dont say i haf many bags. cos i dont.