hullo.


good morning glory. its been a long time since i blogged tis early. hah. cos most of the time i would crawl back into bed aft subuh..

anw, i am so disappointed. my mum called me this morning to complain. and all i did was listen silently. i couldnt think of anything to say, much less to advice. i am so bloody sick of their stupid quarrels. i wish, for a second, they'd learn to be less egoistic and learn to accept the fact that we all need each other to survive. they can be so insensitive towards each others feelings and esteem. and its so unfair when i get dragged in. oh well im such a weakling, all i'll do is cry.. syawal used to tell me that crying is not neccesarily bad cos thats when u'll learn tt u have to be stronger. but obviously it aint workin on me. im not getting any stronger. im so sick of this crap. dah la my bros like that, my parents also like that. walao. im so sick and tired of being the only person in the family who nvr stop hoping..

and other relatives are being such a pain in the arse too. nak kahwin baru carik sedara. and bukannye first time kahwin! (thats mean, but i dont care)..menyusahkan org betul. kalau tak pasal harta, pasal rumah, pasal anak, pasal apa2 la. asalkan ada pasal yg nak dicarik.. whoaaa.. "go eat shit and dielah". i mean, dont u ever. ever feel guilty when u have to put others thru trouble that u could go thru urself? i mean, its not like u were or will be there when we have our problems! relax sua..

ok i can go on and on and vent my pent-up rage and frustration here, but i shall not. i know Allah will help.. oh well. who else would right..
my morning would have been so nice with me jogging and breathin in fresh air. instead, its turned so sour and rotten that i feel like punching people. haha. no la. just kidding.

and i have sad news, i wont be able to go for adib's bday celebration/ns farewell picnic this friday. so much for the excitement and the plans. i have to be home and "layan" ppl......

tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot.




k dah.