hullo!

my entry is goin' be long. (: and im gonna ramble my ass off.
girly man! man man man! hahahahh. erm.

point no. 1
i had my first lesson just now (as in monday).
it was pretty normal and im looking fwd to future lessons. (:
i made frens with an accountant. haha. jadi lah ye.
the lecturer asked me if nurul means light, and i said yeah.
and he asked wats Ain. i replied, 'its eyes. so im the light in YOUR eyes.'
and then all heads turned.
'light in YOUR eyes'!! hahah. confident.

im online right now cos im still wide awake. i was damn shagged a few hours ago, but now dah ligat. haha.

point no. 2
im leaving on weds morning. the flight is at 1pm.
and i'll be back on 11th june 1pm.
pray for my safety yeah (:
i wanna come back and be a better person.
and i'll pray for all of u too, insyaAllah.

point no. 3
for tt 2 weeks,
i'll miss gonj's bapok night voice and i'll miss disturbing and sabo-ing manfred aka SURIYANTI. haha.
i'll miss disturbing my sweeets and i'll miss my bucket very much.
i'll miss my bestfren and his step garang voice on the phone.
and i'll pray for abg faizal la eh. itu confirm punye. wassabi!
and the other babes. (:

point no. 4
a fren asked me the oh so typical qn of why im still single.
sebab dia nak tahu sgt, i told him la eh.
truth is, guys cannot be trusted.
they break ur heart no matter how strong u are,
they trick u no matter how smart u are
and they make u feel ur worst no matter how great u are.
i like lost hope alr. hahaha.

dont u think its true? right?
well it has always been true for me all along.
oh wells. initially i'd curse these guys and make a mental vow to go empty a thrashbin over their heads and walk off happily. but now, im cool..haha. MOVE ALONG.

with that said, u girls out there don have to worry if i stand too close to ur boyfriend, cos i for sure wont steal him from u. hurrhurr. and u guys who think im flirting with u, don have to perasan i want u. cos i dont. hahahha.

point no. 5
i think fuad is in love. and he's asking me for help/advice.
HAHAH. i think tts not very smart cos i don give good advice.
and i hope he comes back in june so i can ask him to get me more drama dvds (: (:

point no. 6
i had a scary dream. i dreamt someone knocked/stabbed a SCREWDRIVER into my head while i was sleeping.
"buub! bubb!! bubb!!"
the hammer knocked the screwdriver into my head. i got up and tried not to move my head.
then blood started dripping from the side of my head.
i woke up and my head was like numb la. scary.

point no. 7
i wanna watch shrek 3 when i come back.
anyone nice enough to wait and then watch with me?
*looks at nizar*
hahah. ok. just kidding! mcm tak kenal je.
i hope its still showing until then.



ok thats all la. see, i told u its gonna b bloody long.

hullo!!


haha. i've got a kakak ipar already. hahha.
okay, cannot haha here and haha there. (nanti kene cap mentel.) hahha.
everything will be good. InsyaAllah.
so yesterday we welcome a new member of the family, and i think she's lucky cos our family is good. hahaha. i think for the time being, they'll be staying at my place. which of course i dont mind. cos i still get to stay in my rm which is SOO berserak now.
alright,

selamat pengantin baru abg ijai and kak yanti! may Allah bless us all. amin. (:

i took pics, but of course, u all have to wait long long to see them. u know i know la eh.

well anyway, i didnt know tt my pakciks and makciks think that i've been dating adib all along.
its funny how just one incident tt took place almost 3 yrs ago could create such an impact! hahah. 'dia balik india lahh!'.
so anyway dib, mak nye takde kat singapore, jgn jadi wild eh. behave urself. haha.

and.. i got my SUPER belated bday present yesterday. *the FACE*
thanks fizah! and thanks to both of u my sayangs for coming. *the FACE*
hahahhahaa. THAT picture will be in my heart FOREVERRRR.
berdesssing! haha.
(lynn, antar i gambar TU sikit, i nak buat wallpaper. hahhaha. or kita boleh letak kat smrt nye noticeboard, with the word MISSING. hahaha)

ok im laughing so much, its a way to forget the sad things.
yeah. didnt do very well for my exams. but ada plus plus plus tu kira dah oklah. haha.
let the selenger past be in the past. thanks and sorry to YOU my sweets, for always being the victim of my merengek-ings. hehe.
aight. the first year is over baybeee.

alright, today is a busy day.
and tmr, its my first day in school! *dance around*
YAY(: (: i am so excited!
and tuesday i'll get to drive.
and wednesday i'll be leaving for umrah. (:


good day everyone (:

k go!

HULLO!!

firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SUGARR!
yeahh. may u have a good everything. (:

and also a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SULIYATI!
dah balik dari vietnam ada new hobby eh. haha..
yupps. may Allah bless u with all the good things. Amin.

phew. i'm getting lazy to clean up the house cos its not like im the one getting married!
hmmmprh. and the pengantin is not home all the time la.
jgn on saturday tak balik sudah eh. hahha. runaway groom.

oh well. people these days.

ANYWAY, tmr, the life science babes will be LEPAK-ING at tha's place. ahh.
it'll be great cos it'll be fun and very fun! chillchill la eh.

and, i really hope i can spend time with my mighty nurul. gosh. i've been busy with dunno what seh. hahha. ok ok soon soon. nanti i plan la eh. kita pegi masak laksa ke per.. AHAHA.

ANYWAY, went out with nizar today and caught 28weeks later. the movie is not good. so if u're planning to watch it, u can go change ur mind yeah? its shallow and just some cheap thrills. for my case its free thrills la. haha. erm.
well it was a great day! (: thanks arrr.

ANYWAY tmr is the A div soccer final.. im contemplating whether i shd join yc and catch tt LAST game at national stadium. mhmmhmhmm. in case u're wondering, its not AJ playing la eh.its rj against mj. ahhh. mhmmh. go or not to go.

ok lah eh, the IDIOT im on the phone with is draining my energy. i shall butt off for now.

hullo

i was at kinokuniya the other day, when i saw this particular book.
the kind that we women dont dare to fip open.
the kind that we'd rather walk off from, although we seriously dont want to until we've seen the contents.
haha. its

the 10 stupid things women do to mess up their lives

by Dr Laura Schelessinger.

so here are the 10 stupid things and also some explanation from some reviews.

1. Stupid Attachment
these women have no goals or dreams except in relation to a sympathetic man with a hero complex. She feels she is nothing without him, who becomes her only reason for living. Both feed off each other's fears of rejection, so she whines and demands while he wises up eventually and dumps her.

2. Stupid Courtship
this mistake occurs because women are so desperate for a man that they don't care what kind of loser he is. They dive in despite the telltale signs. Desperation breeds from not developing interests and goals for yourself, so the female escape route, aka men, is taken as a socially acceptable means of avoiding becoming an individual through attachment.

3. Stupid Devotion
A 42-year old woman listener lists the reasons why she's still devoted to a louse:
Number one, I don�t have to change. Number two, I don�t lose what I like in the companionship and security aspects. Number three, it would be uncomfortable making a transition to being alone or with anyone else. And number four, I guess, I would take it personally�his negative perception of me must be right.� pp. 65

4. Stupid Passion
These women confuse feelings of passion for the presence of mature love. They are carried away with the high of it, have sex too soon, give up their career dreams and get married out of desperation and not love. Divorce results usually.

5. Stupid Cohabitation

6. Stupid Expectation

7. Stupid Conception
Just because a man says he loves you that does not no how mean that he wants a child with you or even marriage. Some women believe the fairy tale that she's found Prince Charming just because he said he loved me!� or maybe she�s trying to force marriage.

8. Stupid Subjugation
he was pressuring her to give them (her children) away. Naturally, she didn't want to give up her kids, but she didn't want to give up the guy even more. pp. 157

9. Stupid Helplessness
Instead of getting angry when guys treat them with disrespect, these women wonder if they should and if the guy gives a decent excuse for it, she accepts it willingly, even though she's unhappy and lacking a sense of validation.

10. Stupid Forgiving
If you've ever caught yourself or heard a woman saying, 'I know he's adulterous, addicted, controlling, insensitive, violent, or fill in blank, but other than that ' then you have witnessed stupid forgiving because the speaker is attached, helpless, subjugated or deluded. Included: a description of styles these emotionally-paralyzed women exhibit.

hahh.guilty of any?

hullo.

home sweet home!
today was great cos it didnt go wasted and i get to spend it with my beloved one.
walking ard till our legs almost gave way and then getting our much needed dose of teh halia and the shopping spree. so random yet full of FUN!
its good. YAY! life's so good. thanks 'garang and action'!

last night (like any other normal nights) i talked to lynn on the phone.
our conversation was so exuberant. and no. we dont gossip.
we talked bout some very interesting things. from nenek kebayan and 'pergi amik rotan!' (HAHA. tak boleh angks) to i dunno what. (cos i fell asleep 15mins before hangin up.) i am happy tt hafiz is not the type who bergantung ( or is it bergayut? haha..tu mcm monyet! ) on the phone w the girlfren at night. hehe.
and she being my tukang penasihat is quite good. thanks to ginko biloba and brain booster.

oh so random.

okies, great day tmr! (:

halo halo.
why were u like tt?
why?

*BIG SIGH*

mhhm.



k dah.

and lynn's keepin my ass burning in excitement. call quick can.

hulllo!!

suppp..
anyway. anyway. my bro's getting married lah sey.
so im gonna have a sis in law. *UNEXPECTED FACE*

this is life. haha.
called fizah bt the east coast park thing, and tt woman laughed like mad.
whoa. madness! eh bila nak kasi my bday present?
*THE FACE*

anyway i was in the train today when this guy came and sat beside me.
he took out his newpaper and opened it big like as if he was sitting on his living room couch..
its damn irritating la. nak baca dgn tangan bukak besar2 gitu, sila balik rumah ye. u know, i so totally hate body contact with strangers, whatmore a male stranger. so his arm was like resting on my little arm. i was so pissed tt i blatantly turned my head towards his newspp and started to read. u know la, like kepo kepo read. i made it so obvious tt the uncle sitting opposite saw it. HAH! yeah man. dgn muka2 i delved into his papers. hahah. so i guess he noticed, then he closed it a bit. pelokek! haha. then when he stood up to get off the train, sempatmenyempat nak tgk2 kita ni.. so i pun apa lagi, dgn muka selambanya, tgk muka dia balik ah. tak happy kaper? u think wat? funfair ah? (chehchehchehhh..)

oh i went out with mak la today to shop for stuffs. haha. it was an accomplishment. two mentel girls walking ard tampines and sim lim sq.. YAY! cant wait for tmr (:

and i cant wait for monday! meeting baoberrrrrrrrr to shop for sugar's bday present.
weee. im ready im ready.

and yes, i'll try to upload more pics. hurrrrrrrr. *patrick's tone*

hullo..

good day today. hehe. yayy!
thanks Allah.
and thanks to my parents too.
and of course a BIIIGG thank you to my sayang for accompanying me.
thanks saaaaaaaaayyy.. (short for sayang. hahah)
i wont forget that happy red-faced guy siahh. wahhahah. tak bole angks lor.
and thanks nizar (:

been hanging out at lynn's place these 2 days. i dunno why, she was so kind tt she cooked mee soto for me. haha steady ah. and today we caught some bloody boring movie on dvd. i was so dying from boredom but i dont know y i watched thru. must be cos of kitty la.

we met up with fizzzzzzah y'day. *unexpected FACE*
hahhaa. funny siah. org perut cramp sampai tak cramp, then cramp balik.
dah la dia lambat, then nak suruh2 waitress cepat pulak tu. hahah.

altho i felt like fainting in pain, i still managed to enjoy myself. haha. YAY to n.a.f! (:

aight. last but not least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAAAWAWAWA. i miss you la minah taik hidung. meeeet upp soon!

so many birthdays coming up and piling up. haha. yikes. come june, lagi banyak!
oh dear oh dear.

hullo.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA! (:
i love my garang mum. i promise i'll always put family before anything else.

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAH!
be good and grow up! haha

ANYWAY..pinggang ku rasa mcm nak patah 3 sehh.
i need a massage. badly. but i paiseh wanna ask my mum to massage me. heh.

anyway, i'm gonna start attending my classes frm the 28th of may!
yay! the principal of the school is really a nice person.
the interview turned out to be like any other interviews i've attended. makes me feel good bt myself. and im so glad to be accepted.
welcome on board, nurul!
(adults love to use this phrase i wonder why. )
and walking ard raffles place always give me this 'important, im late for a meeting, sophisticated' feel. haha. and i feel out of place with my green sandals and faded jeans.

my sidekick told me theres a love triangle going on, with me tercegat dgn muka selamba at one corner and with her tercegat dgn muka gonj kat luar corner. hahhaha. oh well, i do have guy frens i really like but im not really ready.. heh.

ok. i wanna go cut my mum's bday cake!! im ready im ready!!

heyy.

HULLO!!

firstly, i hope afizah gets well SOOOON!!!!
get well, dont be sick!! we all miss you!!

secondly, i dont know why im soo busy. im busier now then the exams period.
i missed all the tv shows that i used to religiously watch before my lappy a few weeks back in the hostel rm. gosh. tiring siaaah.
i am not so free already. * give smart face to Barse* haha. k inside joke.

thirdly, im gg for the diploma course! YAYY!
i have to go thru the interview first. im all geared up. yeahh.

fourthly i'll b out with my chauffeur tmr. hehhe. that'll be fantastic! boleh diharapkan jugak. ahahha..burn all the cool songs! and drive to all those places. ahhha.

the weekend will be spent with the family, umrah course, mothers day and mum's bday celebration!! YAY (:

alrite, gtg. busy week ahead. (:
bye.

hullo!

i caught spiderman 3 today with nizar. (: no wonder shan told me to bring tissue papers!
sappy but the action was still there. honestly, i thot the fringe-down, eye-liner peter parker can pass off as a fallout boy band member. the movie was more than 2 hrs but everythin moved very fast. so yeah its good. (:

went for hockey dinner yesterday evening. so many ppl cancelled on us last minute. :( birthday girl aja wasnt there. yan's bday i guess. and i had to persuade shah to come. 'malas'?! it was good catching up with big mouth chee. and the gossips- who's in love, who's been ermm..dumped, who's changed..

the supper with sembawang/yishun frens at teh tarik was good too. well, excluding the part when the police came to saman the bikes. come on lor, the bikes were not blocking the passage way at all. i bet some selfish ppl called the police to report. thank god the guys managed to fly to their bikes before the police issue the tickets. *thinks of makla and the NUS campus security officers*

ok lah thats all. i wanna sleep.
im reeaddy im reaadddyy.
so spongebob, what do u wanna do?
i dont know, what do u wanna do?
i dont know, what do u wanna do?
i dont know what do u wanna do?

HULLO!!

i just came back from meetin the old friends. YAAAAAAAYYY!!
it was of course a great night, well spent with the usual suspects.
everytime we meet up, we'll make great plans.
we as in, sugar, bittergourd and i. ONCE AGAIN, minachee has disappeared into the thin air.
so i hope our plans go well. IKEA and A&W. haha. best!

anyway yday was a FANTASTIC day! met lynn after weeks of not doing so.
she said she wanted to 'kasi' me. cos she said she kumpul enough alr, but in the end she didnt.
hehe. no matter how shitty and anak ****** we are, we still had fun. hahah. YAYYYY!
gue happy banget!

anw, since im still high on teh cino peng and boms!, i might as well do the 10 weird things bout myself. yikes. where do i start? mhmmhmhmm.

1. mhmm. i eat almost everything! and i enjoy it. hahhaa. i bet u all know that alr yeah. i can selflessly wolf down tons of raw things. raw fish? raw prawns? cincalok? wasabe? kanabe? and raw salmon is my favourite!! *drools* and teh halia keraskeraskeras punya! ahaha. oh and i drink this drink, its somethin like teh halia, but without the teh. haha. or chinese herbs. those with bugs even. or the deer's tusks.. i dunno la eh.
i hate eating the same thing and i love trying food that sounds so weird.


2. mhmmmmmm...my nose bleeds at least twice a week when i sleep. thats the reason why i change my bedsheets just as often. i dunno why it bleeds. i think i lose more blood up here than down there. wakakkaka.

3. im a very open minded person. u can talk to me bout anything and everything BUT i cannot stand conversations about sex. i'll get all squemish and disgusted! dont even think bout discussing with me bout all those positions. hahahaha. *stares at someone*

4. i dont eat much at bbq parties. i think some of you have already noticed that. i only menyebok at the bbq pit, kipas here kipas there, and serve food to other guests. haha.

5. i wake up in the middle of the night just to make sure i've locked my windows. on happier nights, i'd take a shower and go back to sleep. on even happier nights, i'd start cleaning the room. once i wanted to vacuum my room. mampos. haha. my father woke up and chop my head off on the cutting board (what an image!). haha. yeah. thats the reason y i cant share room with anyone. heh.

6. i dont eat when i go out with guys i just knew for the first time or on dates. haha. i know. nak action diet konon. padahalpadahal. i dont know why my appetite would just cease to exist. there was once i went out with this guy, my stomach was so empty i think there was a mine pit in it. but i just had no appetite to eat, like seriously. so he bought me this sandwich fearin i might collapse in hunger. i held the 7degcelsius sandwich till it became so hot lah sey. haha. in the end, i gave the sandwich back to him. gosh. tak senonoh.

7. mhmm.. when i cook, i'd lay out all the ingredients as if im having my own cook show! yupps. so leceh..i know..but i like. that way it'll be neater and....i dunno, its just nice.

8. i always talk to myself when im alone. yeahh. when i jog, when i cycle, when im at home, when i was in my hostel room, when i walk, when i watch tv. my mum used to catch me talking to myself when i was younger but i told her i really had a friend. it was a boy. i swear i really had tt friend. he was older than me. and i think his name was Samu.

9. i always have violent dreams. those that involve M1768 machine guns, L-32 superswift fighter jets, war tanks and scary soldiers. its fun to a certain extent but its also very petrifying siaaa. ( fyi, those models are entirely imaginary. haha)

10. i am so positive and i always feel good. haha. its weird ok. cos it feels so wrong sometimes.

hahh...there. 10 points. i have MORE la actually. haha.

okaaay. thats all! long day tmr. yupps. (:

hullo rainy day.


exams are over, well, with a slipshod incomplete end.
it felt like realising final destination man. you cant cheat death!
hah. ok. they say u can run and hide, but u cant escape.
anw, im hoping for the best despite the horribly perturbing drama yday. (: (:

im in my hostel rm,waiting for makla to arrive.
IM GOING HOME TODAY! (:

gosh. seems like yesterday i excitedly unlocked room 609..mhmm.. seems like yesterday we used to rock the show. i laced the track, you locked the floww.. so far from hangin on the block for dough...eh. ternyanyi pulak. haha. fav song!

ANYWAY. mak la tagged me. i have countless weird things bout me that i dunno where to start.
i'll think about it and put it up soon.

i cried last nite while reading this lady's blog. ( since i alr cried over my nonsense earlier in the day, cryin over other's predicament will make me feel better for some alien reasons.) anw, i envy this lady to her knickers! it must be hard surviving without the one person you've alw found life in. what made me tear was her courage to go through all those and at the same time having so much faith in Allah. (: Allah knows best. i know there are many atheists out there. really, this is not just bout having faith is some divine being, its about seeing the beauty in all nooks and corners, ups and downs, twist and turns of life. (:


and lastly, i wanna express my LOVE and thanks to all the babes who were there with me yesterday.
fanah, annissa, thaharah, shah. and of course to nizar. (:



SO. we left the freshman year. its time to make the best of the long break and then move on to the 2nd yr. sophomore. more more more!


aight. thats all.

what i've been thinkin..
its like when im too busy chasing rainbows,
i fgt i have blooming flowers in my garden.
oh well...

anw, i have 26more hours to freedom.
not entirely. but yeah u know what i mean.

i have a list of things i wanna do. im ready im ready!
1st-ly, register for the diploma course. (: thanks bak!
2nd-ly, read up on the umrah procedures and all.
3rd-ly, meet up with lynn n fizah! cantwaitcantwait!
4th-ly, meet up with the gang! minachee aka caramel, steam, sugar n bittergourd!
5th-ly, meet up with the hock babes. YAYY! and i wanna say THAT word back to chee! *****!!
6th-ly, outing with the belos and mentels. yessah yessah!!
7th-ly, bowling with punets. we'll see sly the star n me the minah longkang. n yana the..apa ah?
8th-ly, pool with nizar! i still have THE DREAM to beat him one day.
9th-ly, GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!
10th-ly, a date with pat/ lynnette/ syaf (: (:
11th-ly, the nurul, nur and sitis day out!! im bloody excited.
12th-ly, shopping day with cuz syawal. will u buy me that crumpler too? (: hehe.
13th-ly, a date with kak sha (:
14th-ly, 2404 class outing? yikes! i miss them all!
15th-ly, visit/work at tt childcare centre (((((:
16th-ly, shopping shopping shopping!
17th-ly, how can i miss this, A&W at JB with my dear Barse! (: (: lets pull in 'tao huai' in too!
18th-ly, book the chalet! yuupppss
19th-ly, go swimming,repair my bicycle so i can cycle & buy a new runnin shoes so i can jog! (((:
20th-ly, i want YOU. yes.. please, more than anything else.


ok i have more la. but as u see, the list will bore u all. anw, i dreamt of adib yesterday.
he supposedly just booked out. weirdly, he didnt look slim nor did his hair become shorter. he had this new found pouch belly like prof mohanan's. same! hahaa. wah sehh.

one more thing,

HAPPY 27TH ANNIVERSARY TO MA & BAK (:

weee. may Allah bless the marriage and family always. amiin! hai.. i feel guilty that im not home to be the one who'd excitedly celebrate, like as if its MY anniversary. hahahha.

aight. back to the books.
k go!