Friday, August 03, 2007
hullo.
this will b quite a long entry.
ther are times when i envy myself for being ambitious. but i think im bloody ambitious that things get extremely idealistic. and the thing abt me is tt, no matter how much i know something seems so far away, i choose to berangan that its just an arm's length away. berangan berangan then stress sendiri..
as much as some kind of idealism gives some form of comfort, we cant get away from the rigid practicality of life. right? *soo annnoyin* like for example, u berangan wanna do double degree or double triple major or whatever that pretty, but u always have this bonus qn hovering above ur head "will i be able to cope or not? im scared i'd fail halfway cos the workload is TTTHHIIS much.. what if i dont achieve?"
we're unsure and we are too busy fearing whats gonna happen en route, if we embarked on the journey towards our sparkling goal. why cant we just tolerate ambiguity and just work with it? and at the same time assure ourselves to do what we wanna do now and not fear the detrimental possibilities.
why cant we just say "so what if in the future, i didnt succeed in what im doing right now? at least i've tried!" or "so what if i didnt make it halfway? at least i did it halfway", "so what if halfway i lose interest and drive to go further?" thats all in the future and why be wary of events that may not even happen?
i know the reason.
firstly, the financial price of failure to most of us is like: unthinkable.
secondly, we cant bear the thought of wasting our age.
thirdly, we just want the best for ourselves. thus certainty and concreteness definitely serve well while obscurity does just the opposite.
oh well what an issue to talk abt at 2 am in the morning.
ok. announcement here.
COUNSELEE WANTED.
im doing a project for my counseling module.
all i need is for that volunteer to spend an hr sharing his/her concern with me, verbally.
PLEASE HELP ME.
note: he/she doesnt have to be problematic. just someone with concerns to raise.
ok. its time to slp.
nites.
